Fighting for life

You can do this

Over the next few days, I am glad we are in a lockdown as I get the opportunity just to lay steady and rest my arm which feels so much better, Harry has been taking care of  me the best possible way, not pressuring me on too much about what has been happening with Whistler, He knows that he is responsible for it.

I am due in court tomorrow which I am feeling very anxious about but also feeling hopeful as well, Liam is feeling very optimistic that with all the other people of interest, they will be Reasonable Doubt and insufficient evidence for a conviction against me.

" Your quite today baby are you ok?".

" Yes Hazza, just thinking about the trail and what is going to happen".

"From what you have told me about Liam and the other suspects, it's sounds pretty hopeful that you will get off".

" I hope you are right" I say sighing, " We get yard time today, which we haven't had in an awhile, that's one good thing to look forward to today".

I am still feeling very nervous with the whole Razor thing, but it seems like someone else is going to take over and they have lost all interest in me.

" Hey styles, it's shower time session for you and your twink" Whistler saids as the cell door rolls back and stays open.

"Stop fucking calling him that". Harry's saids stepping forward and I put my hand on his arm stopping him.

" And what are you going to do about it, I would watch your step Styles, or you are going to the hole" Whistler saids as he walks away down the corridor as all the cell doors are now open.
" Coming baby, let's go shower yeah".

" No I am ok Harry".

" No offence Baby, but we need to shower, we have been stuck in here for days without one".

I shake my head no, I have actually been really clever at hiding it and avoiding the whole shower situation, even since what happen on my first night, I haven't been able to step back in there, so I have been washing myself in the sink.

" No, I am all good, you go ahead".

" Lou, Baby, let's go".

" Harry seriously, let it go, I don't want to shower". I say as he reaches his hand out to touch me and I step back not making eye contact.

" How's everyone doing?". Niall Saids cheerfully from the corridor, " can't wait to  hit the showers, are you guys coming".

Zayn soon joins Niall.

" Let's go, I can't wait to wash this stench of my body". Zayn stops talking when he notices that I am not talking and have backed myself up into the corner of the cell.

" What's going on? Are you ok Lou?".

" Lou doesn't want to come to the shower room" Harry saids a bit frustrated looking at Zayn.
Zayn's eyes meet mine and I immediately know he gets why.

" Styles can I talk to you for a moment" I watch as Harry walks over to him, I can make out the moment when Harry realizes and he walks back over to me crouching, down to my level.

" Baby I am sorry; I didn't think that was your issue you should tell me stuff like this then we could avoid this whole situation".

" I can't go back in there with other people Harry, I can't do it" I say as my breathing picks up.

" It will be ok; we will be with you". Harry's voice is soft and caring trying to calmly convince me to join him, but I shake my head no.

" Can you tell me how you are feeling?".