I NEED TO STUDY (a Calum Hood fanfic) *In editing*

Tour?*

"are you going on tour?" I asked him. He just stared at me. "well?" I asked, my voice breaking. He still just stayed quiet but turned to look at the floor. "how long have you known?" I asked hoping to get something out of him, "a month" he whispered, "how long are you going to be gone for?" I asked again, "2 and a half weeks" he mumbled, "when are you leaving?" I asked leaning on the table to stop me from collapsing because of my head spinning. "2 weeks today" he finally looked up at me.  "Jess look at me" he said moving closer to me, "Jess" he whispered. I still didn't look, I couldn't. "Jess please look at me, you need to trust me" he whispered. I turned my head so I was facing him. "okay good," he whispered, "you need to trust me on this, okay" I shook my head, how could I trust him. "Jess please" his voice was breaking, I turned my head so I was facing him again, straight away his lips landed on mine. Once again, everything seemed fine again, I stopped shaking and just fosced on calum. He pulled me close, there was no space bewteen us. I pulled away to see calum smiling at me. "I told you, you can trust me okay?" he told me, I nodded my head cuddling into his chest, his arms around me, I felt his chest rising and falling, his heart beat slowing down to its normal speed again. I wrapped my arms around his chest holding him close. "let's go back out so they don't think we are up to anything" calum laughed, kissing my forehead. "okay" I whispered before following him back to the couch. "finally" Luke yelled, "haha took your time" Michael added, Ashton was to busy watching the movie to say anything. Calum and I sat on the couch again, he pulled me over so my legs were over his, and I was cludded up to his chest again. I felt my eyes getting heavier and heavier throughout the movie, slowly I feel asleep.

*LUKES POV*  

Okay let's get this straight, I don't like Jess, she's calums girlfriend. But I want a girl like Jess. Maybe I just want a realishionship like Calum's and Jess's. I want someone to look at me the way jess looks at calum. The way her smile gets bigger when he walks into the room, or even if you mention Jess's name around calum his entire mood just lifts. They have only been only out for a few days but they really can tell how much they care and love each other. Why can't I have someone to hold like that? Why can't that be me holding holding the girl of my dreams? Why does it have to be calum?

*CALUMS POV*  

I knew that I had to tell her about the tour sooner or later, I knew that I had to tell her about the band... But not in the same day. For all she knows we are just a small band who has a few fans, no way near enough for concerts. When Jess had another panic attack, I didnt know what to do, I was as scared as she was, I just did what I did last time, I kissed her. Once she calmed down we went back to start watching the movie, she fell asleep half way though, don't blame her, it's kinda a boring movie. She looked so peacefull, so calm. I noticed Luke kept looking over at us during the movie, he looked disappointed.

Once the movie finished Ashton and Michael left, just leaving Jess, Luke and myself. "hey Luke?" I asked "yeah?" he turned his head to me. "everything okay?" "yeah it's fine, why?" he answered a bit to quickly, "just because you kept looking over here durning to movie" his face was speechless "do you like Jess?" I asked. "what? no!" he yelled. "no, shes yours!" he continued. "okay it was just a question" I raised my hands surndering, "why do you want to know?" he questioned me, "because you looked over during the move heaps of times, plus at the pool before, when I brought up Jess as my girlfriend... You went all quiet." I stopped, "look," he started "you and Jess, the way you look at each other, the way you're scared of losing each other, the way you calm her down so easily, it's only been a few days and you are acting like you been in this realishionship for years." he stopped, trying to find new words to say. "I just want a realishionship like that" he stopped, looking at me. "you will find a girl one day Luke, just give it some time," I told him. Jess started moving around a bit. She slowly opened up her eyes, "and sleepy beatuty awakes" Luke laughed standing up and walking out of the room, "sorry I didn't mean to fall asleep" she whispered sitting up, but I just pulled her onto my lap. She placed her head on my shoulder, my arms around her waist. "haha it's okay, I'm actually jelious, that movie was boring," i said, she laughed, god she was so perfect.

*JESS POV*  

"okay well I'm off" Luke said walking back into the room. "okay cya" calum said standing up walking with luke to the door, they walked out of the room but you could hear then talking, I could only hear a bit of what they were saying. "you sure you're okay?" calum asked "yeah, just stop being so lovey dovey... It's gross" Luke laughs "no promises, but I'll try" calum laughs, then I heard the door shut and calum came back. "long time no see" calum laughs sitting back onto the couch. "oh ha ha ha" I scarstaly laughed, and crawled back onto calums lap. "what do you think?" he asked, "think about what?" I asked, "about the tour...?" I sighed, knowing this question was going to come up sooner or later. "I'm happy for you" i smiled. He just stared, knowing that wasn't how I felt. "I really am happy for you, your doing what you love. Am I going to miss you? Off corse I am... But it's only for 2 and a half weeks. I'll survive" I smilied at him again, he smilied back, "I'll miss you too, I'll miss you like crazy" he whispered kissing my forehead.