I NEED TO STUDY (a Calum Hood fanfic) *In editing*

Sorting Things Out

 “Calum” I said, poking my head out of my bedroom door, he gave me a weak smile before walking back into my room with me. “What are you doing here?” I asked.

“I came to apologize, yelling at you, and how it came out, but I'm still angry at you for not telling me. I’m just apologizing for how I said it. It still hurts that you didn’t tell me sooner. And I thought that if you told me sooner, we could’ve talked about it. I really don’t know what to say about this, I just thought that we were one of the couples that told each other everything, but I don’t know anymore” He sighed,

“Are you saying there’s nothing really to say?” I asked,

“Not unless you want to say anything” he said simply, looking up at me in the eyes.

“I really am sorry for not telling you sooner. But I was scared. I don’t want to leave you Calum. I really don’t. The last thing I wanted to do was to hurt you. “

“But you did” he said,

“And you have no idea how guilty I feel, but I’m not ready to give up on us Calum, I don’t want to give up on us. I love you so much.” I tear slowly left my eye, the thought of leaving Calum scared me so much.

“I love you too, but do you really think we could do it? I mean 3 years is a long time” he whispered,

“Can we at least see what happens? Please?” I asked, he nodded his head, grabbing hold of my hand. “I love you” I moved closer to him, kissing him.

“I love you too” he mumbled into the kiss. He pulled back and asked, “But why are you going if you said how much you just wanted to go home when you were over there?”

“Calum, this is something that I really want to do for the rest of my life, there were good days over there, and there were bad days. At least this time I know what I’m getting myself into” he just nodded his head.

“I better get going, I’ve got something’s to sort out, I talk to you later” he said, kissing my forehead and then just walking over.

*CALUM’S POV*

How could she do this to me? Not tell me? I’m happy for her, but why does she have to go? What about the rest of us? Was she not thinking about everyone else?

“I better get going, I’ve got something’s to sort out, I talk to you later” I said, then left the room.

I was still mad at her, for not telling me, not keeping it a secret for so long. I really want to think that we can make it 3 years, I can fly over there sometimes, and she said she will fly over here during the holidays… but I’m scared that something is going to happen. Don’t girls love British guys?

I don’t want to break up with her… no way… but… I don’t think we can make it.

I went home and sat in my room, thinking about what had just happened. I can go over to London in my holidays, and in Jess’s holidays she can come back. We aren’t going to end. No.

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I've only got about 3 chapter left so................. do you want me to post them all tomorrow? i'm excited!!- pip