SMALL DOSES || JIKOOK✅

23 (M)🔞

JIMIN POV

It was strange I didn't feel uncomfortable.

In fact, it was downright shocking I felt as at ease as I did.

As we spent the afternoon touring the park, where I pointed out one landmark after another with his warm body nestled against mine, my verbal filter disintegrated when I revealed little tidbits about myself.

The entire time, I couldn't
wipe the smile off my face.

Yeah, I was whipped.

And when he kissed me?

Jesus, it was torture.

Pure, unadulterated agony,
my need for him so high, it
was mind blowing.

I was at a loss as to what it
all meant.

There was no doubt I was attracted to him.

But what scared me most was that not only did my cock seem to only want Jungkook and nobody else, the rest of me also wanted to go along for the ride.

As of this moment, I was way beyond screwed.

Because at this point, even if I decided to walk away before
the deed was done, my life had been altered by Jungkook.

"What's going on in that head
of yours?" he asked, urging me back to the here and now as
the carriage ground to a halt.

I found myself wondering how
to answer.

Honesty mattered of course but how could I tell him what I was feeling when I was still trying
to figure it out myself?

A groan made its way up my throat.

As much as I wanted Jungkook,
I couldn't lead him on either.

Grabbing the roses, I handed them to him and forced a smile.

"I just wanted to make sure you understood that after today, things can't go any further between us."

"I know." he shrugged, looking far too casual for my liking.

"Do you? Really? Because it doesn't seem that way to me."

I tilted his chin until his eyes met with mine and for a second, I found myself lost within his gaze.

He tried to move closer but my tightening grip held him in place.

"Goes to show how much
you know."

He gave me a bunny smile.

"Jungkook, be serious."

"You've been too much of a distraction, so I either need to find a way to get you out of my system or you must look for another job."

"It's as simple as that."

He let out a defeated sigh.

"You want me to quit?"

"All I'm saying is that some thing's gotta give, It's clear I can't trust myself around you."

"I mean, I've already broken
my rule of never getting
involved with the help."

"Granted, we hooked up before you started working at the club but I can't sleep, I'm drinking way too much and my focus
is non-existent."

"Hobi wants to kill me with
how badly I've been behaving toward the customers and I
can't risk losing everything
we've worked for because I've got a hard-on for you."

My admittance might have stung a little but I had to let him know how much I was struggling.

He took a deep breath and nodded. "Then fuck me once."