𝐼𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝑜𝓃 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈. {𝐵.𝐸}

its not true

I wake up screaming, ugh great another night terror, this is the 3rd this week I swear I never sleep. And ofcourse on top of all of that I woke Billie up. "Hey hey hey it's okay you're safe as long as I'm here no one can hurt you." Billie whispers as she holds me close. I burrow my head into the crook of her neck as I'm uncontrollably shaking, my breathing completely out of pattern. "Breath with me, you can do it." She gently whispers. Eventually my breathing pattern matches hers and I'm asleep.

I wake up with my eyes fluttering open being met with the realization that billie is in fact not next to me I frown in response looking around for my phone.

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9:43 a.m

1 unread text from "Mì Amour"

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Mì Amour

Heyyy Luv I'm at Bill's
house and safe :)
3:27pm [read]

Bitch I can
hear colors
deadass.
3:21am

Like this shit's
wacky as fuck.
3:46am

Oh my GOD what Did you
get into?!
9:44am

Please tell me your safe
Mì Amour!
9:45am

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I set my phone back down on her end table and cuddled back up in the blanket slowly drifting back to sleep, I know it's weird, I can sleep all night and still be exhausted when I wake up. I was drifting back into rem until I heard Billies voice in the room next to me, only Billie's house would have paper like walls.

"I know I feel so bad for her she woke up last night screaming uncontrollably crying and shaking, I felt so helpless and so sad to see her like that you know? It's like 2 years ago my best friend left and 2 years later I gained back a stranger that I've know for years. Not at all in a bad way it's just heart breaking to see her heart broken and not know what happened or how to fix it you know?" Billie says to who I'm assuming is her mom.

"I understand Bill, but all you can do is love her through it until she eventually opens up a little or she might not, either way it's your job to be there for her, to love her through it you know? Remember how you were when you were struggling? Keep that in mind while you're talking to her, maybe even talk to her about it a little, it might make her feel not so alone, it's crazy how you can know that you're not alone while your going through something yet you still feel so lonely. You know? Just keep that in mind as well."

"Thanks mom you always know just what to say, I better get back in there before she notices I'm gone."

I can hear the footsteps to the bedroom and the door creak back open, I decided to keep my eyes closed because honestly I'm still so tired. I feel the bed dip next to me while her original sent fills all of my senses. She lays back down next to me and lightly and innocently kisses my forehead as she pulls me closer to her. I feel so safe when I'm like this. I want this to last forever Is all I thought before I went back to sleep.

I woke up an hour later, billie still cuddled up with me, I smile innocently still feeling so safe, all i can do is stare at her perfect features, her cute button nose, her long eyelashes, her freckles that would always get darker when she was in the sun a lot, like everything about this human is perfect, how did I go 2 years without her?!