LIVING A LIFE OF A SALTED FISH

14: Can't go any further with the villainess.

Contrary to what I'm expecting, the woman raised the edge of her lips, smirking provocatively at me, and I smiled back, curving my lips like a mischievous cat.

Let's see who will have the last laugh, I thought in my head as I lean even more forward. At this thought, I opened my lips as I moved my face a bit closer to hers. "So…what do you think I'm about to do, hmm, Ruhee?" I asked in a playful whisper. 

"Who knows?" She replied, unbothered and still with a smirk. "Why don't you go ahead and try?"

I chuckled as my mouth twitched, feeling like things weren't going as I planned. Why is this woman so shameless right now? I asked in my heart, feeling baffled with the situation. 

Despite feeling bewildered, I still went on with my acting, pretending that my heart isn't hammering in my chest. "Are you even up for it?" I said, running my tongue on my lips in a playful way.

Hehehe, take that, I thought with mischief. 

However, my actions only made Ruhee's smile deepen even more, and she suddenly advanced her face forward, taking me by surprise as I moved my head back a bit. 

"Well, are you Nisha?" She asked back, full of provocation in her tone.

My lips twitched. "Of course," I muttered in the same manner of attitude. 

Ruhee tilted her head to the side, gazing at my lips. I gulped as I cower back out of nervousness, which the woman raised her lips.

Her face is coming even closer, and I retreated my head back while Ruhee zoomed in front of me with an annoying smirk on her face. We did that over and over until I'm cornered, and the woman plastered a triumphant grin like she just won over our little competition, which made me feel unwilling. 

"I thought you're ready to do it? Why are you moving away, huh?" Ruhee said, looming over me. Her eyes felt like a knife stabbing every inch of me as she watched me closely. 

I gulped as my heart beat rapidly. I blinked my eyes as I slowly let go of her hand, then I plastered a careless smile, laughing in an awkward manner as I averted my gaze, feeling awkward as Ruhee locked her intense eyes on my lips.

"What are you talking about, Ruhee? I'm just kidding, you know the same shenanigans…? Hahaha…haha…ha."

Ruhee grabbed my face with both of her hands, making me face her, and I held my breath. I saw her ruby eyes darkened as she parted her lips, and both of us heaved up our chest, holding our breaths.

We stared at each other just like that. Neither of us took our eyes away as we both slowly gazed down at each other's lips. I gulped as I felt Ruhee's hot skin, grazing to mine. She's so close to me that I feel sensitive to every little thing she does.

"Push me Nisha," Ruhee mumbled, while her eyes still focused on my lips.

I blinked in confusion. "Pardon?"

She leaned closer, making our nose touch each other's tips. "I said…" She paused, staring at my eyes first before she softly continued, "Push me."

I swallowed as I finally understood what Ruhee was trying to say. "Push you?" I scoff in a tiny voice. 

Ruhee nodded in a solemn face. "Yes, if you don't, then…" 

She didn't continue as her eyes went down to my lips, then I noticed her throat made a bump as she probably gulped. For some reason, the thought that Ruhee has anticipation of doing it with me is making me feel exhilarated.

Oh crap, do I really like this woman? I asked in my head as I felt alarmed.

My heart thump, and I felt the butterflies as I came to terms with my growing feelings for Ruhee. I'm not certain of anything yet, but I can no longer deny it. Also, who wouldn't fall for this woman's charm?

I'm not that blind, and I'm not immune to such things. However, whatever these feelings are, I can't let it continue further. Because Ruhee will never come to like me, and I don't want to destroy my peaceful prisoner relationship with this woman. That's right. I think of this as peaceful despite the peculiarity of the situation. 

But no matter what I'm feeling right now, I need to get over it quickly and let things go. 

My dream of living a life of a salted fish is much more important, I can't let that chance slip from the grasp of my palms. In other words, even if my heart is against it, I need to maintain my prisoner relationship with Ruhee. Our relationship can't go anything more than being a host and a guest. Also, I rather stay like that than go any further then get hurt. Call me a coward, I don't care.

"So you're not going to push me?" Ruhee asked gently, snapping me out of the trance.

I gulped, blinking my eyes several times as I felt conflicted on what to do. "I…" 

I bit my bottom lip as I couldn't say the word, nor push Ruhee away from me. My head is screaming at me and scolding me that this isn't part of the plan, so I shouldn't cross the line with the host. But my heart wanted it. I like how close she is to me; the smell of her body; the touch of her skin and every little thing she does is like a drug to me right now. I no longer even care how sour our dresses smell together, because my eyes are too concentrated on the woman before me. 

No matter how much my head tells me that I should just push Ruhee away, my body is reacting completely against it, because they stayed rooted to where they are. 

"If you're going to stay silent like that, then that would only mean to me as a yes," Ruhee whispered. Her lips came closer even more, which only left a few centimetres away until our lips touched. "Push me now or never, Nisha."

I frowned as my brows knitted together. "But I can't," I blurted out quietly.

"Then close your eyes," Ruhee smiled as she parted her lips, closing her eyes as she slowly advanced towards me. I was about to close my eyes as well, but before I could, I heard the voice of the coachman, telling us that we had arrived.

So I cleared my throat to let Ruhee know. "Ahem, we're here at the mansion…host."

Ruhee opened her eyes again, and I saw her face showing all kinds of emotions before settling for a frown then they became unreadable. Without saying anything, Ruhee stood up and went out of the carriage. I breathed out as I face-palmed myself, feeling embarrassed from what just happened. At the same time, my heart felt a pang as I watched Ruhee walk away like nothing happened.

I shrugged as I also stood up. "Well, nothing really happened anyway," I mumbled to myself.