ONIKA
I woke up in bed alone. I didn't think too much of that until seeing a scarf on my pillow reminded me that Bey spent the night.
She snuck out of my bed, I know that, but I thought she would've came back.
That upset me but then Solana called me, that automatically made me feel better. I wiped the crust out of my eyes and answered with a smile. "Hey Sos. What's up?"
She was in the drivers seat of her car with her phone on a stand. "I'm at Starbucks, do you want anything?"
"No I'm okay, thank you though." I love that this is her love language.
"Are you sure? They have stuff without caffeine, I know you care about your body and shit."
Her and Bey are a lot alike, I get how they were close.
"Yeah. I was going to get breakfast with Bey but-"
"Bey?"
Damn it. I know it wasn't a secret but I didn't exactly want to mention it. "Yeah... she slept over last night but she's gone now?"
"Did something happen?" I could tell she was being protective over me. I don't think Bey is anything she needed to protect me from.
"No, she just left last night and I don't think she came back. But I asked her to come over sober and she actually was sober the whole time."
"She was?"
"Yeah, I could tell." It's easy to tell when Beys high and when she's sober.
"And that made your crush for her stronger, I'm assuming?"
"... Maybe."
She started laughing and clapped her hands. "So you admit you have a crush on her?"
After Bey kissed me yesterday, I knew I had a crush on her.
I know she can be a little but if a mess but I like it. I need the balance, and so does she.
"Yeah, I guess I do." I still don't know what I am, but I like her. "But I don't know if I would date her."
"For obvious reasons you don't have to say because I know better than anybody."
"What was she like when you two started... whatever it was?"
"Well it was good up until the drugs. It'll obviously be different since drugs are already involved so I can't really tell you what you could expect. Just- don't be too patient."
"What do you mean?"
"I know you want to help her but she doesn't want help, don't spread yourself thin trying to fix her because you think you can. It's okay to put yourself first."
"Yeah, I know. We're just friends right now so that's nothing we have to worry about yet."
"Mhm. Well if you don't want anything, I'm about to get in the line. Call later?"
"Yeah, bye. Love you."
"Love you too." She blew a kiss at the phone and hung up.
I got out of bed and went into my bathroom. I used the bathroom, brushed my teeth, and did my entire morning skin routine.
Since I had nothing else to do, I was going to go to the gym but I had to eat something. When I eat too much at the gym I always feel sick so I was going to eat just enough for the energy.
I went downstairs and I wasn't expecting Bey to be at my kitchen island eating. My mom was across from the table from her and already smiling when she looked up at me. "Look Nika! Your friend can eat!"
