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My mind was all over the place. I had never been this thrown off before.
Last night I didn't even call Wayne like I said I was going to. I took a shower and then watched hours of surveillance footage of Bey. It just didn't make sense to me, I couldn't understand what about her was different.
Or maybe it was me. Maybe I was off my game. I needed a vacation.
The next morning I had a clearer head and decided it would be best now to call Wayne. He answered but I could tell he was with other people, that annoyed me already. "H-"
"Go to a different room."
"Well shit, okay. Give me a second." I didn't say anything and waited while he went somewhere quieter. "What's up?"
"I want to go home."
"Huh?"
"I don't want to be here anymore, Wayne. I want to go home."
I didn't even know where home was anymore. I never stayed anywhere more than a couple months.
He laughed at me. "Do you know how old you sound right now."
"I really don't give a fuck how I sound. Call the pilot and tell him to come get me."
"Why do you want to go home, little baby?" The fact that he wasn't taking me seriously was making me mad.
My voice got quieter, I was a little embarrassed to have to say this. "I came."
"During sex? Isn't that the point?"
"Nigga, I really feel you're trying to play in my face or something." He must still be around other people. "You already know I don't cum during sex because of the emotional connection. I think it's too late anyway."
"What's too late?"
"I'm way too emotionally invested. She's different, I might make a mistake. I'm not on my toes like I should be when I'm around her." She makes me let my guard down.
"I'm going to be honest, Nic, you need to tighten the fuck up. We have plans and they're not going to be ruined by a little cum. It's not that serious, it happens."
"That's the thing, it doesn't happen. I've never even been into it enough to cum." Like I said, I was trained for this. My body doesn't even do that.
"Maybe she's just better? Shit, I don't know. It doesn't matter."
"Well it does because I pushed her away and made her have her driver take me home right after."
He didn't say anything for a second and I got a little scared. "What did you say?"
Wayne and I are friends and all but he's not nice all the time. We're one step away from me calling him daddy and him pimp slapping me when I get out of line.
"I'm sorry-"
"You're going to go over to her and apologize. Today. I don't give a fuck if you have to get on your knees and beg or fuck her until you can't anymore, make it right."
Hold on now. "Wayne-"
"I don't care."
"I think you keep forgetting you're not my boss, we're partners." He was getting beside himself.
"Only one of us fucks for the money though, right?"
I didn't say anything while I processed that he just tried the fuck out of me. "Nigga, fuck you." I hung up before he said anything else.
