Seeking Him

Chapter Eighteen

Camille POV

I wake up sandwiched between the twins. Gideon is so warm that I don't want to move.
I know Kelsey is up because I can hear her crying. Before I can move, Gabriel gets up and leaves the room.

I can hear him talking to Kelsey. The moment is so sweet, I sneak to stand by the door and watch.

"It's okay sweetheart. You're at my house. I'll be taking you home tomorrow. Is that okay?" Gabriel asks.

"Yes, but where's my Mommy? You said we were going to see her. Can I see Julian?" She asks.

I step into the room and she hugs me. "You want to go meet Julian? We have to be quick because it's time for him to eat," I say.

"Can Daddy come too?" She asks.

"I'll be down in a few. I have to get dressed," he says.

I took her hand and guided her into our bedroom. Gideon was topless still asleep while Gabriel was in the closet picking out clothes.

"Be quiet so we don't wake up your Dad," I whisper.

"Okay, Mommy," she whispers back.

"Don't bother. I'm awake," Gideon says into his pillow. "Where's my spider monkey?"

Kesley crawls up the bed to him and he pretends to sleep. She goes to pull off his covers and he turns around. He grabs her and tickles her until she's giggling. He's laughing too.

He looks so happy and carefree. It just warms my heart. It's been too long since he looked happy. Maybe there is hope for him. Maybe he can climb out of the hole that was dug for him.

Julian starts crying. I sit on the edge of the bed to start feeding him. He calms down as he eats, making soft little sounds of contentment.

I kiss his soft head and sniff him. He smells so good. I missed that smell. Kelsey was a delight when she was a baby. She never cried unless she needed something but that was always perfunctory. As she got older she would pat my back while I patted hers. Such a sweet baby.

"Gabriel?" I pose.

"Yes babe," he says

"I think I will let you get me pregnant sooner than later," I say.

"Is that right?" He asks. "Is that my reward?"

"No. I just think I would like a big family," I say. "You two make me want to have more."

"How big are we talking?" Gideon asks.

"Five or six," I say. "Is that too much?"

"No. It sounds perfect," Gideon says.

"Do you want them close in age or with some space between?" Gabriel asks.

"I don't know. Let's just see what happens," I say. "Do you want more brothers and sisters Kelsey?"

"I already have a brother. Now I need a sister," she says. "I'm hungry."

"You want to help me fix breakfast?" Gideon asks.

"Yes Dad. I think you should make pancakes and oatmeal," Kelsey says.

"Alright. Let's go," he says.

He's dressed in pajama bottoms and socks. He takes Kelsey's hand and they head downstairs.

Gabriel came over to me, picked up Julian and burped him. He put him in his bassinet  and came over to kiss my cheek. Then he moved down to my neck sucking on different parts.

He laid me down then climbed on top. "No time like the present to practice," he says.

He kissed down my chest to my belly. I had to stop him there. He couldn't go down on me because my body still wasn't ready for him. I was too self conscious for oral sex.