Not Giving In

A Life For A Life

Dominick's Point of View!
Two Weeks Later

Honey had been in a coma for two weeks.   As much as they tried to save her and the baby in the end they could only keep her.  She had lost the baby and I have been feeling like shit.  It's all my fault.  I lost my baby girl and there was nothing I could do about it.  All the planning and preparations and because of my demons in the closet she has to suffer.  The doctor said they've done all they can for her, and now it's up to her to fight and come out of it.  I haven't left her side.  Her family is here as well.  We told them that someone had broken into the condo and I found her lying on the floor in the apartment.  We had to fly her back to Italy after they got her stabilized while we were in New York.  Her grandparents haven't left her side.  Her aunt and Cousin come and see her every day.  Right now we are just waiting.  

" Dominick maybe you should go home, eat something, take a nap, rest," Mr. Gerald asked. 

" I am not leaving her side but you guys go ahead,  I will call you if she wakes up, " I said looking at him and Mrs. Maria.

" Alright.  We will be back first thing in the morning.  We love you, Dominick.  Get some rest okay " Mrs. Maria said hugging me.  I nodded hugging her and going to sit back neck to Honey after shaking Mr. Gerald's hand. I sat there in the chair for what felt like hours watching her chest rise and fall.  When there was a knock on the door.  In walked Bentley with a teddy bear and some flowers.  

" How is she doing, " Bentley asked.

" Same Doctor says he's a little worried she should have woken up by now but what shes been through was traumatic could just be her body healing itself.  How's your project " I asked. 

" Taken care of.  We should not have any more problems with anyone.  I definitely made a statement out of Gustavo.  We are ready whenever you are to take back over " Bentley said.  

" This is all my fault, Bentley.  How stupid could I be to think that I could have my family and live the life I live?  I lost my child Bentley.  I almost lost the love of my life.  Is this what life is " I asked.

" You out of all people deserve to be happy Dominick.  You didn't ask for this life Dom and you shouldn't have to suffer because of it.  You're one of the best men I know.  We've done our best to keep Honey safe " Bentley said before I cut him off.  

" Everything but let her go," I said with my head down.  

" Dominick that girl loves you. No matter any of your flaws.  Let her make her choices before you make them for her " Bentley said.  I was about to speak when Honey's hand jerked in my hand.  I turned to her quickly seeing her eyes blinking. I heard the door open and Bentley had run to go get the nurse.  

" Relax baby the nurse will be here soon.  Stay awake for me " I said rubbing her head.  As the nurse came in they ran more tests and checked her vitals and then left back out.

" Do you remember what happened? " I asked. 

" It's a little froggy is the baby okay," Honey asked.

" I am sorry baby.  The doctors did all they can.  The baby didn't make it " I said holding her hand.  Her shoulders sagged and she began to cry hard.  She screamed and cried.  I tried to comfort her but there was no amount of comforting I could give her.  She screamed and screamed.  Cried and cried.  Eventually, the nurse came back in to give her medicine to put her to sleep so she can calm down.  

Honey's Point of View!

I woke to my grandma and grandpa on the side of me and Dominick in the corner of the room looking out the window.  

" Dominick she's awake, " My grandpa said.  All the memories came back to me.  Dominick walked over but stood a safe distance away. I guess trying to feel out my mood.  

" Doctors said you can go home today if you're up to it " Dominick spoke finally.  

" We will leave you alone until Dominick says you want to see us but we were so worried and didn't want to not be here " My grandma explained.  

" Can I go home?" I asked looking at my grandparents.  

" Dominick can take you home as soon as the doctor runs a few more tests, " My grandpa said. 

" I want to go home with you guys," I said not even trying to look at Dominick.  

" Excuse me, don't you even want to talk about this, " Dominick asked. I didn't answer.  I laid back down and closed my eyes.  I felt the tears coming but I couldn't bare to let them out.  I need to feel safe.  I don't know what I am feeling right now.  I lost my child.  Got shot and beaten and kidnapped and I don't even know where my head is.  I feel like I am losing it.  I am not mad at Dominick.  I'm not mad at anyone, I am confused and hurt and lost.  I don't want to be in his house where I was supposed to be starting my life with my daughter.  I can't bare it this time.  I couldn't bare it.  

" We will take you home as soon as you're discharged, " My grandmother said.  Dominick walked out and my grandpa followed him. 

" Are you up for visitors? Your mom and sister are in the hallway, they've been worried sick " My grandma said.   I shook my head no and turned away from her.  She sighed and I could hear her walk out as well.  I cried when everyone was gone.  I cried for what felt like hours until the nurse came back in.  I cried until I couldn't breathe anymore.  I would have given anything for me to die and for the baby to have lived.  I had gotten shot in the leg and had several broken ribs, my face is badly swollen and my arm is broken and my ankle is sprung.  Apparently, I am lucky to be alive.   

When the doctor finished running tests and letting my grandparents and Dominick know everything I need to keep up with things I was discharged into the care of my grandparents and as Dominick helped me into the car he didn't say a word.  As soon as I was in safely he said something to my grandpa and he was gone.  I wondered how long it would be before I saw him again.  Or if I even wanted to see him again. I didn't want to be with my grandparents and I didn't want to be with Dominick.  I wanted to get away and get away for a while.  A long while a few weeks, years who cares.  I wanted to start over.