The Curl of Your Lips | TWD -Shane |

Girl at Home

"No Abigail. You're hurt,and you're confused."Rick turned and grabbed my arms,his voice was soft and slow,"Just clean yourself off and lets get back."

I sighed and went back to the river and washed the grime from my body,the cold water pulling me from the trance like state I had been in for the last half hour,"Rick I'm sorry I wasn't-"

"I know,Abigail.I know." He nodded and I got out and got dressed quickly.

The ride back home was silent. The air was heavy with unspoken words,but neither of us dared to speak up. I started getting uneasy as we got closer and closer to the farm. To Shane. I gulped as the large white house came into view and slumped down in my seat when I could make out the facial features on my waiting campmates. As soon as I stepped out of the car Shane stepped out in front of everyone. Tears picked my eyes as I took a step back and looked down at the dirty. I felt a squeeze on my shoulder and Rick lead me towards my tent,shielding me from Shane. I layed down without protest and curled up into myself staying tense, and unable to relax so close to Shane.I began to play the dangerous 'what if' game. What if I had never moved to Atlanta? What if I hadn't befriended the Grimes'? What if I had died or became a walker?Would Shane still have became this monster if I had stayed instead of leaving and he hadn't slept with Lori?

I decided to look to see if Shane had done any damage to my face. Using the tiny compact mirror I could see the bruise starting to form across my cheek. I was not going to just take this lying down, so I got out and made my way across to the barn as discreetly as possible. I was at least going to make this bruise worth it.

When I made my way up to the the barn, I was shocked to see Carl there glaring at Randall. I put my hand on his shoulders and looked down at the boy below trying to persuade Carl to let him go,"Randall, stop talking."

"Oh! It's you! The pretty ginger,I remember you from the town."

"Be quiet, I'm sorry you have to deal with this but I can't do anything against the group."

"Even your boyfriend? How's your face?" He raised his eyebrows and Carl gasped and turned to me.

"Shane did that?"

"No,Carl. He doesn't know what he's talking about." I squeezed the young boys shoulders,"You shouldn't be here Carl."

"You two, you have to help me. These people they're crazy. 'Cept your daddy,Rick? He's nice I like him. I like you two too-"

Randall was cut off by Shane busting in,"What did you say to them?"

Shane pushed Carl and I behind hi as he went up to Randall,"What did you say?"

"Nothing! Nothin' I swear!"

Shane had him pinned to the wall with a gun at his lips,"I will shoot you. I will shoot you right now,open your mouth!"

"Shane!"Andrea and I protested at the same time, I ushered Carl out the door to get him away incase Shane slipped into the darkness and shot the poor kid.However Shane pushed us both out and grabbed Carl by his arm.

"Not cool man you could have gotten hurt back there.Both of you." He glanced up at me for a second.

"Please dont tell my parents- I could have handled myself."

Shane grabbed Carl and pointed his finger at him,"You listen here you don't - A guy like that he will say anything he will do anything to make you trust him.If you let your guard down you'll die."

"Shane you don't- You have no right to discipline Lori and Rick's son. Not with the way you have been lately. You're cruel and reckless, not a good role model for him anymore." I glared pushing Shane from Carl,"Carl go home."

I waited for Carl to hurry off before continuing,"What's the difference between you and Randall? Huh? You both are manipulative and only out for yourselves. You don't tell Carl how to live like you, how to give up emotions and sympathy. That boy in there he lost people, he did what he had to to survive, just like you're doing. The difference- The difference between you and him is that the people who he loved were killed by monsters, and you are the monster who kills the people he loves. Loved."

"Abigail."His voice cracked."Abbs I can't-"

"Don't 'Abbs' me. You hit me,Shane. You put a gun to my face. Remember when you used to lock people up for doing that?"I scoffed and walked off.

I spent the rest of the day making dinner for everyone,I needed a break from all this. I hadn't had a sense of normality in a while. Maggie helped a little, i think she was trying to get me to talk about the bruise. Maybe she'd seen from the house or something. ,"So, Abigail. How old are you?"

"Twenty-seven." I answered simply rolling out the dough for a chicken pot pie,"I might be twenty-eight now."

"Where you and Shane together before this all started?"

"Yes. For years, I met him at Rick and Lori's Christmas party."I smiled sadly at the memory,"He used to be a good guy,Maggie. He really did.He was loyal and brave and I loved him."

"He took this too hard. He wasn't made for this world."

"That's the thing Maggie,I think he was. I think that we are the ones who weren't designed to make it like this. Yet, now we're stronger than ever because we're different than the ones who were. We kept our sanity."

After dinner was over Rick pulled me to the side and asked me a question,"DO you think we're doing the right thing?"

"No. I think that he was just a boy in with the wrong crowd. Killing him goes against what you stand for.Think of Carl."

"Carl's taking this rough. Told Carol heaven was stupid and she was an idiot to believe there was a better place."

"Shane." I muttered under my breath,"You can think Deputy Dumbass for that one."

"Shane?"

"He told Carl if he let his guard down, he'd die. Rick, that's not okay."

"No, it's not."

"He's going to take Shane's side.He's going to go cold if you don't do something, Rick.Prove to him that people are still people and we need people to survive."