Changing mindsets

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In the 3rd grade I made a friend, which didn't go so well. In the 9th to the end of the 11th grade, I begin writing fantasy stories about characters who shapeshift. Then later heard a voice in my head saying go be a star, I didn't listen to the voice in my head. I was in the zone and being inspired to write more stories. Next I started to feel like a character so I hypnotized myself to keep the feeling going.

Then I begin to have dreams about Sunset Shimmer. I've compared myself with mlp. To the human eye, they are invisible but to the mind's eye I can see them and hear them. I know the girls are there, they are kind of a whisper. Then unexpectedly one summer at my grandmother's house I begin to act like Sunset Shimmer. I mean at one point in the movie, she thought she forgot to pack sunscreen. In reality, did the same thing except I thought I didn't pack my hair brush. Then later I started to feel like a certain character, which ended up being Sunset Shimmer.

Sometimes I can't breath when feeling the transformation. In the day and night if people know what I'm going through they will think, I lost my mind. People will say it's all in my head, will I believe them, no probably not. What I feel is real

One of the reasons I could be feeling like an outsider is because I never did belong in a church or I worry what my friends will think of me, since I think in a different way. The possibility of becoming a shapeshifter is that I might lose myself is worse than losing friends. When someone walks up to me saying characters aren't real, then it's kind of like saying Jesus isn't real or if someone says Sunset Shimmer your friend, really? In your dreams, I may get offended by that.

I was teased by African Americans, which driven me to my hatred for them. I was hurt by them. My first friend left me, which cause to have Catra's mindset. I may have been in Sunset Shimmer mindset for 14 yrs.

About the author
1) I haven't really experienced with any other character except for Sunset Shimmer. Sometimes, I can hear other characters. I enjoy talking to
Sunset Shimmer, why do I only hear her, when I can hear other characters? Maybe my characters power needs time to increase. Like how I increased feeling like
Sunset Shimmer.

How I increase the character is by exercising (work) or listen to tributes. I know the girls are there, I can smell them if they have on perfume that is scented. Pinkie pie, she smells like cookies. I hear apple jack, she's country. I even hear rarity. When she speaks, I hear darling. As a fancy pony that's a good complement. Flutter shy is more of a whisper.

2) one day at work, I had to write on a board telling I've clocked in letting them know I'm at work, the machine couldn't get my finger print. I thought I have obtained Sunset's DNA bc I have felt like her for 24/7.

3) I kind of made Fluttershy feel expose, my mom and I were talking about animals can't speak human (English) and I told her not unless you are either Fluttershy or Blythe. I thought my mom wouldn't get the joke.  I was missing around and she asked me who's Fluttershy? I told her where she's from which is mlp. My mom tells me superheroes don't exist, I kind of went along, I didn't really believe what my mom had to say. I mean I believe they are real, since I live in a fantasy world and I love it.

I believe Sunset Shimmer is real, I have dreams and experience of her. I believe I have a chance of becoming a shapeshifter/ changeling. It's like it was in the same subject/topic. My feelings are real. Then how else can I hear them? It's bc I believe they are real. Do they get sick? Yes from my own experience. When they get sick I feel as if they are real as in real human beings. So I'm really trying to not expose anyone else.

When people see that I have energy and running some people saw that I look like a bullet

I can relate to the song "control". After I watch a tribute after a few minutes I can feel an energy. I will feel vibrations. Catra is stronger than Sunset Shimmer

The kids say please stop your scaring me, i can't help this awful energy.

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