Scarlett Johansson/ Natasha Romanoff one shot

Stop Trying To Fix Me (N.R)

Nat's pov

I have been worried about Y/N a lot lately. She went on a mission with Maria a month ago and she hasn't been her usual self.

"Have any of you guys noticed a change in Y/N?" I asked them all as we sat down to eat. Another meal were Y/N has failed to join us.

"She did find some horrible stuff out on the last mission." Maria stated as we all looked at her. "It's not my place to say what it was." 

"I'm sure she will be fine Nat." Wanda said as she rested her hand on my shoulder. I was extremely worried for her and there wasn't anything that I could do.

"I'm just worried about her." I sighed.

"Worried about who?" Y/N spoke from behind me. I tensed in my seat before I turned around to see her expressionless face.

"It's not important." I tried to shrug off.

"Of course it is. So who are you worried about?" She asked once more as she moved to the fridge to get a bottle of water.

"Have you eaten Y/N?" Wanda asked her trying to steer away from the subject.

"I am fine thank you." She gave her a stiff smile before her eyes scanned the rest of us. "So are you all just going to sit there or answer me."

"I uh." Tony started. It was the first time I had known Tony to be stumped.

"Well. Have all of you lost the ability to talk?" She asked as she raised her voice slightly.

"We're all worried about you Y/N." Maria told her. She just scoffed and walked away to the training room.

"What exactly did she find out to make her act so different?" Clint asked as everyone looked to Maria.

"No. I am not saying ok." She spoke sternly before getting up and leaving herself. I decided that I would go and check on Y/N in the training room. I watched as she done pull ups on the pull up bar.

"What do you Natasha?" She asked as she dropped down to her feet before going to the punching bag.

"I am worried about you Y/N. So very fucking worried ok." I told her. "You have been different and I just want to help you."

"You want to fix me." She stated as I shook my head no. I hadn't realised that everyone else followed. "I don't need to be fixed. I am exactly who I was made to be." She looked behind me to everyone else. "That's right I was made in some Hydra lab. I WAS FUCKING CREATED LIKE SOME FRANKENSTEIN MONSTER. I WASN'T BORN AND EVERY SINGLE MEMORY I HAVE OF MY EARLY CHILDHOOD WAS ALL LIES. MY WHOLE LIFE IS A LIE SO STOP TRYING TO FIX WHAT ISN'T BROKEN." She took a deep shakey breath. "I am not broken. So please leave me alone."

We all watched as she walked out with a slam of the door. I went to follow her but Maria stopped me.

"Just let her cool off. She is still coming to terms with it." Maria told me. I just nodded before walking out myself.

That night I couldn't settle at all. Not knowing if Y/N was ok or not. So I decided to go to the training room for a while. It's the best way for me to clear my head. When I entered Y/N was sat in the middle of the floor meditating.

"I'm sorry about earlier." She spoke without opening her eyes and looking in my direction. "It wasn't something that you find very pleasing."

"You don't have to apologise. I'm sorry for pushing." I told her as she finally looked at me. "I was just worried about you."

"It's fine Nat." She said as she stood. "I'm still trying to come to terms with it myself. Finding out that every memory I have had before here wad fabricated." She sighed as she ran her hand through her hair. "It's just hard to come to terms with that I was made to kill. I was made to be dangerous. I don't want to be dangerous."

"You aren't dangerous." I told her as I stepped closer to her. "You have saved so many more lives than you have taken. You have done so much good. Yeah the bad will always be there but it's how we overcome it that matters."

I pulled her into me. Even though she was taller than me. I held her in my arms as she cried. I just let her cry in my arms. She knows that she has a whole family here with her. People who believe in the goodness she possesses.

AN

Finally a one shot. I hope you guys enjoyed this one. Let me know what you think :)