Fantasy ( Please do not ReaD)

Part 60

CHAPTER 60

Nenet is 7 months. I miscalculated. Sorry.

When I woke up that following morning, a knock on the door came. I had been delivered a package that said it was from trevante. I opened it up to find little tiny boxes. I jumped at the sight of the diamonds in each box. Jewelry, diamonds and other assorted jewels all laid out on my bed...

Immediately when I saw all these extravagant things, I knew what I had to do. Call him.

" Hello ", he groaned in a tired voice. He must have just woke up.

" You can't pay for my forgiveness. Now listen last night was great, I enjoyed it and I enjoyed you. Last night you were..........Look I'm just saying that I can't accept this. It's making you think that you can fix this with money but you can't. I'm sending back the car and the jewelry ", I ranted.

" Y/n this is truly just a gift. I'm not trying to buy you off. I want to spoil you. I always have ever since we first got together. I want you to have these things because I'm thinking of you ", he reasoned.

" Then give them to me at a later time. Until then I'm sending them back. And one more thing ", I paused.

" What ", he seemed irritated.

" I'm cutting off the sex again ", I sighed. Truthfully I didn't want to this but last night I had come to a realization.

Trevante's sexual "Abilities" sadly had the power to make me do anything, say anything. If I wanted him to know I was serious, a sacrifice had to be made. Fuck it.

" Why....did you not enjoy last night ? ", he asked.

" Last night was mind blowing and it always is and you know that but sex can't save us. If we are gonna make it. If we are going to make this work then we have to reconnect on a level that's more than just the surface or physical ", I reasoned.

" The therapist encouraged sex...and dating and talking things out. ", he added.

" I know but I think this is something that we should do. We can still talk and date. I think we would benefit from it. I'm being too lenient with you. Last night I was just thinking about how different things would be if you had cheated and I didn't have my kids. If we weren't married with children it would have been a lot easier for me to leave but I knew I wouldn't be able to bare it if I had our boys asking me where you are. I know that I still love you and I know that I want to be with you but you need to let me take the lead in this. Because I'm still having a hard time forgiving but it's easier to forget when you're in front of my face. I never got time to fully process this and be alone. So that means I don't wanna see you for...awhile ", I wiped a tear from my eye.

" If it means I'll be getting any closer to restoring what we had then by all means, Take all the time you need- fine. I just don't see how it will work ", he spoke passionately into the phone.

" And if I don't get off the phone, I'm gonna go back on everything I said ", I panicked.

" bye ", he hung up.

Blue balls are in his future.

I had the nanny drop the kids off at his house while I spent the day in bed, hung over. I looked down at my phone looking at all the pictures I saved on my iCloud. I came across a picture of us in Dubai. My youthful glow shines through the picture. I stared at the camera, beaming whilst trevante just looked at me with loving eyes.

How could we get back to that. The honest, the connection and the understanding. How could I look at him and not think about that fateful night. And most importantly, how the FUCK is marriage counseling really going to fix this. Today was a day full of doubt.