Unexpected beginnings

New eyes

You curl up next to Soap letting him wrap his arms around you. You start to quietly sob yourself to sleep in his arms.

You hear an alarm clock go off, waking you up. When your consciousness takes hold, you find yourself between Soap and Ghost with dried tears on your face. You look over seeing Soap still asleep, but Ghost is awake.
"Let's go soldier," Ghost says pulling you up from the bed, ultimately waking Soap up in the process.
Rubbing your eyes and letting Ghost pull you up, "what are we doing? We're not heading out until 2, it's 11?"
"I'm going to teach you how to shoot," Ghost says pulling on his boots, "get your boots and vest on."

You meet Ghost outside, letting Soap sleep.
"Ok, love, cock the gun and shoot," Ghost says handing you a pistol.
You take the gun, check to see if it's loaded (it is), cock it, and shoot at some empty cans Ghost set up a few feet away. You take three shots, miss two of them and knick on of the cans.
"I don't think I can do it," you say lowering the gun.
"Sure you can, love. You just need to look at it through new eyes," he looks at you when he says this, "now, hold the gun up, square out your stance," you follow each of his directions step by step, "aim where you want to hit, now before you shoot, take in a deep breath, and as you exhale, squeeze the trigger," you take your deep breath, and squeeze the trigger as you exhale. You hit the target perfectly, "Good girl, now do it again," you use the exact same technique and hit another two cans without fault.
"Didn't know I could do that," you say lowering the gun.
"Of course you could, you just had a mental block. Eventually I want you to try sniper, but I think you did good for today," Ghost says taking the gun from you, "but before you leave, this is for you," he pulls a black mask out of his pocket and hands it to you, "sometimes shielding your face makes it easier."
You take the mask, "thanks, I wouldn't have thought about this," you put in your pocket and you both head back inside.
Walking back into your room, you both see Soap, still sound asleep. You crawl back into bed for the hour and a half you have left closer to the wall than your teammates and drift off to sleep.

1:30 am- Ghost and Soap get out of bed and hit your boots that you are still wearing you wake you up. You get out of bed and head to the bathroom, as you are standing in the mirror after fixing your hair, you pull the black mask out of your pocket. The mask is small and only covers the lower half of your face, but as you stand in the mirror putting it on, you feel secure, concealed, like you can hide yourself from the tragedies you are about to cause.
You leave the bathroom and meet the rest of the team in the living room,
"Let go, 141," Price opens the door and let's everyone file out. You are the last in line, on your way out Price says, "we're here for you, kid."
You get in the back middle seat again, but this time you feel prepared, you feel like you can be more useful to your team than just the "computer nerd".

Eventually the car stops, you, Ghost, and Soap get out of the car and immediately start heading to the building Ghost and Soap were in before, but instead of finding intel, you were going for bodies.
With each kill you made or witnessed, you used your mask to deflect the guilt that should be weighing on you heavy. All you think about is finding the next person and why it should feel just to end them.

As you are lost in your mission, a voice comes over the comms, breaking your focus, "wow, didn't think you could drop guys like this," Soap jokes.
"Is this what you guys normally do on missions, joke?" You ask in a serious tone.
"Yeah, or flirt, but Price think we're just joking then, too," Soap replies.
"Yeah, like this, you've been such a good girl, taking my advice and following directions perfectly," Ghost's deep voice almost purrs in your ear.
"Or," Soap begins, "such a pretty girl, such a shame your hiding your face with that mask," you turn a corner to see Soap standing there.
"Woah, didn't know you were there, could've got ya, Soap," you say lowering you gun, "good job on the flirting, though," completely understating how those statements really made you feel.
"Yeah? How about we try something else?" Soap says getting closer to you.
"Like what?" You let your guard down and let Soap get closer.
Soap presses his body to yours and wraps his arms around you, "like this," he pulls down your mask and deeply kisses you making you stumble back until Soap has you pushed up against a wall.
Ghost's voice comes over the comms, "get a grip soldiers, we haven't officially finished the mission."
Soap pulls away, "sorry, LT, just got a bit distracted," then gets back to the mission.
Soon Ghost,s voice comes back on the comms, "we've done it, it's time for extraction. Get to the car, it will be right outside the building, and make sure you're decent."
"You got it, LT,"
"On it, Ghost," you both respond at the same time.
You and Soap make your way into the car where the rest of 141 is and then head back to your way back to the safe house.

When you all get back inside, Price makes everyone gather at the kitchen table before you get to get cleaned up and go to bed.
"Good job, all of you. You made the main mission go fast, but we're staying out here for another day to keep any remaining situations under control. Now go get some rest," Price says, it feels good having your boss be proud of you, even if the reason is unconventional at best.

You get back to your room, luckily your room has an attached bathroom that you can go in and wash the blood, sweat, and dirt off of you. You rush back to the room before your temporary room mates and steal the shower before they can even step in the room. Having some warm water is nice for a change.
While your in the shower, you hear the bathroom door open, "um- excuse me? The bathroom is kind of occupied?" You say to whoever is now in the bathroom with you, only separated by a thin plastic shower curtain.
"You're excused," A deep voice says.
You peek your head out of the shower to see Ghost, leaning against the sink staring at you, "you know, I could join you in there, if you get lonely," Ghost jokes.
"No thanks, I'm fine," you say hiding your exposed self back behind the shower curtain.
The bathroom door opens again, you think Ghost had left, so you check to make sure, but this time Soap had joined him in the bathroom. Ghost is just waiting by the shower while Soap is washing his hands. By this time you're done with your shower and turn off the water, then reach your hand out from the shower to grab your towel, only to find it had disappeared.
You peek your head back out at look at Ghost, "looking for this, darling?" He says smugly with your towel in hand.
You look over to Soap for help, but he just watches the whole thing unfold before him before he says, "get out, the rest of us need to shower too," before walking up to you and kissing you similar to before.
Knowing what he's trying to do, you pull Soap, fully clothed, into the shower with you then turn the water on before you get out yourself and snatch your towel from Ghost, wrapping it around yourself and walking out of the bathroom.