Hate You, Love You. | Jenlisa

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I confess everything.

I hold nothing back.

It feels liberating to not have to keep that secret from her. No more lies, no more sneaking out, no more guilt.

I expect her to freak out, or ground me, or ship me off to an uninhabited island like Rosé's parents but she's taking everything well... at least well enough that she hasn't had a heart attack.

For ten minutes, she doesn't say anything. I guess that is the part where she is processing everything and I don't blame her. If my teenage daughter told me that she has been dating a 23 year old old man for 5 going on 6 months under my roof, I'd probably be seething.

She is disappointed and rightfully so because I'm older and meant to 'be more responsible' to put in her words. It is a tearful experience for the both of us, even moreso for me because I'm in both physical and emotional pain.

The hospital discharged me 3 days ago. The doctor gave me crutches and said my leg would heal nicely if I don't push pressure on it by engaging in strenuous activity. The lacerations on my skin have also faded a bit.

The dark red bruises have been covered by layers of skin and I don't feel as much pain as I did before.

Also, I'm not going to school till further notice. Mom called Principal Yang and told him that I'm not well enough to attend school. Of course, she was rather vague and left out the important details, but said that I'd attend school next week.

In the meantime, Rosé volunteered to drop off all notes and assignments I'd miss. I haven't told her the whole truth either. Per my request, mom sent a quick text to tell her I was 'unwell.'

The media has been busy too. As I predicted, the 'shootout at Lakedale Road' is a trending topic. It's all they ever talk about. The police haven't given an official statement, so all they have as information is that there was a shooting, a Jeep and a sedan were found at the scene and a teenager was found a few miles away from the shooting.

I haven't heard from Kai, or at least heard from the police about Kai. They've been radio silaent ever since they visited me at the hospital and it's driving me crazy. Is he alive? Was he injured? Is he in a ditch somewhere? Someone needs to tell me something!

I've been checking my phone non-stop, hoping that he'd call me, or text me that he's okay, but it's been 4 days and my hope is thinning.

I don't pray for the worst, but in situations like this, a missing person's case (if I can even call it that), it never end well.

And the thought alone is deliberating.

Because I love him. I love him and he loves me and maybe we would have had a shot at being together in the future. This is my first real relationship and it's going to shit already before it hits a year.

I don't regret anything. I was only sorry that I hadn't told my mom the minute it started but I don't regret any and every moment I spent with Kai. Dare I say, they were the happiest moments of my teenage life.

It hurts so bad, being left in the dark, but I have to be calm and focus on getting better so I can figure out what the fuck is going on.

There's so much that doesn't make sense to me. Why were Kai and I targeted? Who was the shooter? What vendetta did he or she have against us-against Kai–if my suspicions are correct? Also, what is Kai's connection to Lisa?

"Jennie, are you okay?" Mom asks, concern gracing her face. She took a break off work to take care of me and is doing the things I normally would have done if my right leg wasn't fractured: taking Ella to and from school, cooking breakfast, making dinner and doing house chores.