TMNT Raphael x Reader

What now?

                      Chapter twenty one

Raph was in the lab sitting in a chair as Donnie was running some tests. They knew that Raph was more intact with his predatory side along with all of his animal instincts and BOOR. But it was never this bad. And now Raph was scared that he'd hurt one of the guys again. And he was especially scared of hurting you. He thought you must've been scared of him now that he's done that to Mikey. You might never want him to touch you or go near you, and he understood if that's what you wanted. Hearing the clicks of the clock and the keys Donnie was pressing on his computer pad made Raph sigh heavily. Only focusing on that to keep his mind at ease. Especially now that he kept thinking of that nightmare. If he can't control himself, how is he supposed to help his kid? Donnie looked over to his older brother and then looked back at his screen, knowing what he was thinking.

D: Mikey's fine you know...
R: what?
D: Mikey...he's ok...he's worried about you more than anything else.
R: that still doesn't make it right Donnie.
D: and the fact that you know it wasn't right of you to do that. And that you feel guilty about it is exactly why he's more concerned about you then anything else...

He looked down as his heart started racing faster his palms getting sweatier. While Donnie just looked at him seeing him looking so down. That making him turn his chair around to face him properly.

D: Raph what's wrong?
R: what if I hurt her Donnie? What if I get out of control again and hurt her....god she'd never look at me ever again.

He put his head down and in his hands trying to cover up his face as Donnie wheeled himself over to the big guy and patted him on the shell.

D: Raph your not going to hurt her. Not intestinally.
R: I know I won't do it on purpose-
D: no no no. Raph, because y/n's your mate, your predatory self, will fiscally not harm her. Not ever. Even like this, it's still apart of you, if you went up to her and grabbed her arm and tried squeezing it, it won't let you.
R: your bull shitting me right now?
D: Nope. All true facts.

Raph exhaled glad that he couldn't hurt you. That was the last thing he has ever wanted to do.

R: thank god...
D: (chuckles) so,
R: Hmm?
D: when are you and y/n getting hitched?
R: aren't we already?
D: well I mean kinda. But it's not the same thing as having a wedding...and I'm sure y/n would love it.
R: I know she would. I just...want to wait a little longer...
D: why?
R: because if she has those kids and decides not to stick around. She can just leave...
D: Raph y/n's not going to leave. The girls liked you since she was like twelve, and your the longest happiest relationship she's ever had. She loves you bud. Don't worry about her.

Raph put his head down and sighed.

R: I really hope your right Don.
PING
D: oh it must be done.

Donnie went to his computer and looked at the screen, pushing up his glasses as he looked at it and sighed.

D: see told you your fine.
R: what is that?
D: your DNA. See this stem, that's your pretor instincts, it's still normal. Which means that the reason why you did that is because y/n's pregnant now. Your going to be fine. As long as none of us touch her or go within a one foot radius of her. But there is one upside...
R: what?
D: y/n's due date is...well it's in Oct.
R: how is that an upside to this?
D: because if it was in may you would kill me. But you would still try harming me if I try helping y/n give birth. I'm going to have to show you how to do it, and you'll have to do it at your place with the privacy you two have.
R: what?! I can't do that! Sure I don't like the thought of you down there! But god damn it Donnie I need ya to help her! What if I fuck it up?!
D: you won't! Because of your instincts you'll already know how to help, plus remember Clair?
R: the girl I helped give birth on the subway?
D: yes! Because of that intense situation you'll be able to handle helping y/n have your babies. Which I did a test,