𝓢𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓘𝓶𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓽𝓪𝓵 (Ydris x Reader)

𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓹𝓸𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓷𝓽 {6}

Grab a few snacks this chapter is long 👀🤌🏻
I'll also put the AN up here to not ruin the mood down there 👀

I try hard to match Ydris' personality to this Ydris' personality but I'm struggling hard, I have written many different sentences and in my head they sound good and then I'm like „nah delete that- doesn't sound like him" 💀💀💀

Not proofread/ not edited/ can contain mistakes 🤌🏻
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The warm water rained down onto me, the feeling heavenly for my sore muscles from carrying haynets and buckets with water the entire day. Even though the water relaxed my muscles it didn't relax my mind, I was nervous because of todays Training- nervous because of him, because of my still weak magic. Magic i needed to fix as soon as possible.
As I had stepped out of the shower I wet over to the drawer and picked out a fresh set of clothes and got dressed, checking the time again 5:30, still enough time to walk to the paddock and check up on H/N.

I walked around the stable to the field H/N calmly grazed with his hind turned to me so I whistled, his head snapped up and he neighed at me making a turn trotting to the fence, I reached my hand out and he gently nudged it „Hey boy, how are you" I waited for an answer but it never came „what's wrong?"his head turned sideways in question as he lowly neighed again „Why can't I understand you?" panic slowly spread over my neck through my back gripping me „Can you understand what I'm saying?" He blinked at me, no further reaction than that, he couldn't understand me anymore, with shaky fingers I pulled out my phone and called Lisa.

It rang

And rang

Still rang

As I was about to hang up I heard her voice „Y/N?" I yanked my phone back to my ear „Lisa! I have a problem, H/N suddenly started feeling sick yesterday so I left him on the paddock, I just checked up on him and he can't understand me anymore neither do I understand him" now I couldn't hide the panic anymore, my voice wavered „Y-ur-con-ectio-n-" before I could answer the line was dead and all I heard was the beeping from the other side „Fuck!" I shoved my phone back into the pocket I opened the gate and signaled H/N to follow, wich he did. I started walking into the direction of the paddock as I heard him snort behind me, I turned around and saw him nod his head to his back „You wanna carry me?" he stood still. I approached him, grabbed his mane but before swinging my leg I expectantly looked at him, he pointed at his back again with his head, so I swung my leg out and jumped on his back, when I was sat he gently started trotting up the hill.

As we arrive on the paddock I spotted Ydris already waiting, a wave of relief crashed over me the immediate feeling of security coming upon me, as we approached his face lit up to his signature mischievous smirk „Hello little dove" but as he saw my distressed face his expression fell „What's the matter?" I hopped off and patted H/N but my eyes not leaving Ydris' „He can't understand me anymore, I don't hear him anymore too!" suddenly his face was serious „since when?" he reached his palm out and gently stroked his nose „Today- he wasn't feeling well yesterday so I left him on the paddock when I checked on him- it -I didn't understand him anymore" he put his hands together, ever so slowly a faint purple light breaking from his hands growing bigger and bigger until it was the size of a ball, he released it and it calmly circled around H/N before coming back to him. „Hm" he swirled it around in his hands as I desperately looked at him in hopes of an answer „I don't find any magic, at least no unordinary magic considering he's a- what do you call yourselves- drui- soulriders, apologies my love, a soulrider horse" his hands fell back to his sides the magic disbursing into the air „Listen dove, we will train now, our goal is it to strengthen your magic, No? Maybe this is but a minor inconvenience due to lacking the training for a few days, fret not my beloved, it soon will be back to normal you shall see" a heavy sigh left my lips „Alright"

As we entered the center of the paddock I saw a pendant around Ydris' neck, a purple hue shimmered from within, i pointed at it "Can I ask about the pendant? What is it?" He grasped the pendant "Just a little something from my home" he tucked it beneath his shirt "It's beautiful" he softly gazed into my eyes and muttered under his breath something I didn't understand "What was that?" He clapped his hands "let's starts shall we"

„I can't do it" a frustrated huff left me as my hands casted no more than a faint glow. Any progress we had made was gone again, my bones felt dull without the magic. I couldn't even feel the magic anymore „My magic was always present, i felt it linger in my bones but it's gone!" anger was pulsating in my veins and tears sprung into my eyes and found their way down my cheeks „It is not gone, it is sleeping, a wielder who possesses such strong magic as you does not suddenly loose their magic" a sob racks through my form „Y/N" he softly said, he extended a hand and gently get firmly grasped my shoulder „You have it in you. I know. I feel it" the tears just kept coming no matter how quickly I tried to wipe them „How come you feel it and I don't? I feel so lost lately I don't know where my magic is, what even my magic is..I-" I pause, the silence is loud, he doesn't push me he just watches me and he patiently waits for me to continue „I don't know who i am anymore" my voice broke at that sentence „am I a soulrider? Or am I an- an appendage that suddenly appeared and suddenly entire Jorvik looks at me like I'm fucking Aideen herself! I love helping people but it's always me! Y/N do this- do that, you need to save the world but while you do that can you muck out the stables? I can't do this anymore- it's too much- how am I supposed to be the saviour they count on if I don't even know what I am anymore? How am I supposed to protect Jorvik when my only weapon is gone?!" my breath quickened, sobs now so powerful I slowly plop down on the floor sobbing my heart out, Ydris crouched down before me grasping both my shoulders

"-fix it please" I whispered

"Fix what?"

"Me"

One hand came up under my chin and he tilted my head upwards to meet his piercing eyes, any glint or gleam of flirtiness or mischief gone, his face gravely serious.

„Carefully listen to me now dove, you think gruesomely bad about yourself, you think you're weak, weak without your magic. Did you help all those people with your magic? No you did not, you helped them with your generosity, your heart of pure gold- do you hear me? I tried to destroy this lousy realm, and you came into my circus not a single speck of fear in your eyes and you stood up to me with such marvellous confidence I've never seen in anyone or anything so don't you dare have the audacity to think or speak so lowly of yourself. All these people need your help because they trust in you. They trust you blindly, the entire folk trust's you. They count on you, they enjoy your company-" his voice lowered into a whisper „I trust you. I enjoy your company. I envy you, your strong personality, your stubbornness, your pure heart. All of these things make you, you. That is why people need you. Your heart is your weapon, darlin' and after all this realm maybe isn't so lousy anymore when you are around" he gave me the softest most sincere smile I've ever seen. I was in utter shock, all I could do was stare at him wide eyed, a million thoughts racing though my mind, his words still sinking in. I was in a daze, my eyes dropped from his to his lips, as he noticed his gaze fell onto mine too and he slowly leaned in, my head felt hazy, cloudy like I was in a dream. His face inches closer until I felt his hot breath fanning over my lips, only Millimeters left between us, my eyes fell shut

"How about we try again, chérie?"
I opened my eyes to see him retreat, it felt as someone punched me in the gut, a wave of disappointment washed though me for a second as his mischievous smirk was back on his face, he grasped my hand and pulled me up his demeanour changed as if someone flipped a switch.

His right hand grasped my hand on the back and turned the palm skywards his other hovering above mine, his gaze wasn't meeting mine anymore his gaze pinned on our hands. He conjured another magic bulb letting it go onto my hand "Take over now little dove"

I wasn't prepared for him to release the magic so when he retreated the magic faded and went out, I quickly reacted to the feeling in my hand, the tingle, the warmth, and before I knew I conjured it back up, from my own hands. My head whipped to the side and I gleamed at him.

„We did it" I gasped

„You did"