JAH SAYS

9: Alone.2 💜

While sitting in front of my computer, scrolling through my Instagram feed, I cannot help but think of how some of the people are right...

Lately, I have been taking it easy and not letting the music overtake my personal life, where I no longer would have time for it or the people I love. The art that I create is my own, I do appreciate the love and concern from my fans but I do prefer to work at my own pace. That is how I want it.

I cannot pay any attention to the people all over social media who are saying things like, I've already fallen off. It sucks, I won't lie...but... F*ck them. All of these haters who spend all of their time discussing my life online, upset that I am getting married... It is a shocking thing, no doubt...

They should know that I, myself, am shocked to be marrying this woman, as much as all of my fans are... I mean, I can't believe either, that Herah and I are getting married. But we do feel different about it since I am thrilled and filled with joy and yet most of my fans seem to disapprove.

I can't stop that... Anyway, I have a wedding to plan. It will be hectic, but, the peak of my life. For my career too, because my music style will probably change and I cannot wait to explore this new chapter of my life.

I sigh.

On the not-so-bright side of things, today, I will be spending a full day alone, without Herah as she had left early morning. All she told me was that she was going to some store. She did not specify the name... I had just woken up and she kissed me goodbye.

Running through a few new sounds and beats and playing video games will be the way I try and distract myself from her, well, from not having her here with me.

My phone then buzzes from the table and I pick it up. I read my mom's name on the screen, answering it immediately.

"Hey, mom... How's it going? Are you still at that mysterious store?" I ask, smiling, happy that she called.

When I eventually got out of bed this morning and went downstairs, in search of my mom, I could not find her either. She later told me that she too left to a store. I'll remember to ask her where she is.

"Hey, Jah. Everything is...going." She sighs as she smiles through her words.

"And it's not a mysterious store, it is called a mall." She says, letting out another long sigh and I chuckle.

I wonder if everything is ok...

"I am here with Herah...!" My mom says, making my smile grow even wider.

"And Michelle. We wanted to ask you exactly when you wanted the wedding to happen..." My mom tells me with an unsteady voice as she walks.

My mind races...

Herah is with my mom? I should have known they'd spend the day together since they both gave the same excuse this morning...
Everything is still fresh and wedding dates have not yet been set at all. Why didn't Herah just confirm one, since she is there too? Why would they ask me?

"Ummm... What is Herah saying about dates? When does she want it to happen?" I ask, unable to think of a fixed date.

I know for a fact that my mom wants a huge wedding for Herah and I, since it is all she tells us. Her grand wedding ideas... A castle was one of her suggestions. My mom is a, go big or go home, kinda person. Meanwhile, Herah's opinion on the size remains neutral.