JAH SAYS

1: The Explanation 💜

Ever wondered what it was like in Xxxtentacion's head? I have and I still do... How did his mind work? What it is like? Not the words that he spoke but the things he never said...

Xxxtentacion's POV:

Negative...

I love eating pizza. Anything with cheese on it is just...great. I wonder where 'she' is...

I grab my ice-cold drink that sits on my desk. After taking a sip, I place it back down. The sounds of the ice cubes clinking together against the glass echo throughout my house.

Damn. It's really quiet.

Focusing my attention back on the monitor in front of me, I adjust my headphones, speaking into the mic.

"Can you hear me?"

Fortnite is fun...

My eyes close as I lay in bed. I let out short breaths, breathing in and out.

Just as it is on the inside, everywhere around me appears extremely dark. Walking forwards with my hands in my pockets, I keep my eyes down, trying my best to keep out of sight from all of them.

I do not want anyone talking to me. I do not want anyone looking at me. I jus-

Suddenly, I am stopped in my tracks. Slightly raising my head, I see an old man smirking at me as he blocks my way. He stands right in front of me, and I tighten up my hidden fists. Before I can react, moving swiftly, the man has something cold pressed into my face. Whatever he holds against my left eye, it somehow drains all of the power that I had just had, out of me.

I-I cannot move.

Witnessing the chain of events from a different angle, I see that the old man holds a small golden pocket watch to my face. Just then, I try to move my fists to hit him despite my lack of strength, but I cannot move a muscle. My eyes then slowly roll back as I apparently lose consciousness and appear no longer in that dark town.

I appear somewhere else entirely... And it's just like Candy Land! The opposite of the place I had previously found myself in...

I notice the bright grass which is almost neon green as it appears to be spiky in texture. As I daringly walk across it, I must constantly check that I do, as the grass feels like a cloud under my feet despite its appearance.

The clouds look like that of some cartoon or animation. The wind blows in my face causing me to smile at its abnormal caressing touch.

This reminds me of that one good acid trip I had experienced the first time I did it...

I think to myself, smiling under the sun, uttering not one word out in the open yet.

"An acid trip...good one." A feminine voice says, laughing, making me search for its owner.

I find none.

And then, there, in the near distance, stands a tree, which the figure of a woman emerges.

Beautiful.

I am unable to speak as she approaches me slowly. The closer she seems to get to me, only makes my eyes open to how far away she still is. She comes close, so close, then is far away. Until she's close, so close that she's touching me... She then looks as if she wants to kiss me, so I tilt my head a little bit to kiss her back...