JAH SAYS

16: What now?

💜 BEGINNING OF PART 2💜

My slow steady breathing becomes automatic as I stop altogether. I stop trying, I stop thinking, I just stop as I am no longer able to continue.

Sh*t... What the f*ck?

*OUTSIDE SOME ABANDONED WAREHOUSE*

Loud grunting is heard. Inside of the rather dark building, sits a guy in a chair. Both of his hands are tied behind his back as he hides his face, hanging his head low.

"Hold him up-" The man who stands before him, instructs the other standing beside the man in the chair.

After the man in the chair is lifted, his head dangling backwards, the man towering over him strikes him in the head once again.

*BACK TO WHERE HERAH IS*

A small psycotic laugh creeps up from within but I remain silently in pain.

This...is my life. This room is my bedroom. This bed belongs to me, and the life that I thought I had with Jahseh was all a...dream. A long and painful waste of time.

Was it...is it even worth it?

It all, physically, f*cked me up. My motionless body, laying here, on my bed for, God knows how long...

What was that? What was all of that? Did I do it, myself? Impossible...with my mind? How bad is the damage to my body or brain? Will I be paralysed? For days, even months, or longer?

F*ck!

I miss X...

I need to get the answers to all of my pending questions. It is my number one concern...even though, I am, currently, way too afraid to re-experience all of that pain.

I close then open my eyes as they are hit with flashbacks at an abnormal speed.

I gasp as everything goes back to normal.

I am in my room, I attempt to sit up completely forgetting why my body is so still. I fall straight back down as pain strikes every part of my being. I close and open my eyes remembering where I am... What...what had happened...

This is not good...

I move my arm in an attempt to bend it, seemingly enhancing the pain a thousand fold, I hold back a scream, pinching my eyes shut.

I can't stay here forever...

Bracing myself, I roll off the bed, clenching my fists and falling onto the floor as Iied near the edge. A loud cry comes out of my mouth, stoping halfway at the sudden lack of pain. I open my teary eyes and look around, in search for any of it...the pain... But it is all gone. The pain subsides almost supernaturally...

Or at least, I believe so. I wait a long while on the floor, resting my head on the circular, uncomfortable and prickly mat that had caught me, cousoning my fall the best its thin layers fibers could.

Not sure whether I am in the clear,
I mean, how could I all of a sudden be? Since I did just throw myself off my bed and onto the floor...