Losing You [A Benson and Bensler Fanfiction]

Five

"You are going to go to work and then come straight home," Kathy spoke, as she stood in their bedroom and packed a bag.

"Kathy, I know the rules," Elliot grumbled.

"I don't want you seeing her when I'm out of town. Do you understand?" Kathy snapped, as she looked at her husband. Elliot closed his eyes before nodding.

"I haven't seen her since I left, Kathy. She doesn't want to see me anyway, since I abandoned her," Elliot sighed. Kathy walked to him and pressed a firm kiss to Elliot's lips. He kissed her back, even if he didn't want to.

"Text me if you won't be coming home from the precinct. Then I know where you are. Got it?" Kathy spoke, as she caressed Elliot's chest.

"Yes ma'am."

"Good. Walk me out."

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Elliot went into work after seeing Kathy, Eli, and the twins off. Kathy's mother was sick, and she insisted on taking the kids with her. Once the van was out of view, Elliot got ready for 'work' and headed out. He had told Kathy that she would not track his phone because that crossed the line for him.

Since Kathy couldn't track him, Elliot went to Olivia's apartment. They both had today off, so they were going to spend it together.

"Olivia?" Elliot asked as he unlocked her apartment with his key. He had a bag of breakfast in one hand, and a tray with two lattes in the other.

"I'll be out in a moment!" Olivia called, her voice muffled behind her bedroom door. Elliot cleared the coffee table and spread out the breakfast before sitting cross-legged on the floor. 

"Good morning, beautiful," Elliot smiled, the moment that Olivia's door opened and she walked out. Olivia padded quickly to where he sat before sitting down on his lap and kissing him deeply.

Elliot ran his fingers through Olivia's hair and continued to deepen the kiss until they had to part for air.

"I have missed you so much, Elliot Stabler."

"I've missed you too, baby. How are you?" Elliot questioned as he caressed Olivia's lower back.

"I have a surprise for you, but it can wait until after breakfast."

"Are you going to get naked and lay on your bed? Because I am so ready for that surprise," Elliot grinned.

"It's better, trust me."

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They ate breakfast and then went into Olivia's bedroom. Elliot stripped down while Olivia was getting the surprise around in the bathroom. 

"Babe, how much longer?" Elliot asked with a sigh as he shifted to get into a different position.

"God, you are impatient. Give me one more second," Olivia laughed from behind the closed bathroom door.

After a few more minutes, the door opened and Olivia walked out in a lacy lavender bra and panty set. She had her hands behind her back as she padded to where Elliot laid.

"Purple is your color, Liv," Elliot breathed. Olivia grinned as she climbed onto the bed and worked herself to where she was straddling his waist.

"Pick a hand," she ordered.

"Um," Elliot replied, his voice laced with confusion.

"Just pick a hand, baby," Olivia smiled. 

Elliot looked at her for a long moment before pointing at her right hand.

"Right," He spoke. Olivia pulled her right hand out from behind her back and handed Elliot its contents.

Elliot looked at the image in Olivia's hand. He grabbed it between two fingers and looked at it for a moment.

"What's this?" Elliot mused. Olivia smiled excitedly before speaking.

"That is our baby, El."

"Baby?" Elliot breathed, as Olivia took the positive pregnancy test from behind her back and passed that to Elliot as well.

"I'm six weeks pregnant, El. I missed my last period and Rollins insisted I go see my doctor when I got sick at work a few times."

"H-how did it happen so fast? Kathy and I have been trying for months, but we have been trying for only a few weeks... and how are you six weeks? We didn't really start trying until the beginning of this month!"

Elliot was shocked, and Olivia was worried that he was disappointed. She climbed off of his waist and sank down onto the edge of the bed. She swallowed hard and fought off tears.

"You forgot to use a condom a few times, El... I'm sorry," Olivia whispered.

Elliot kept staring at the test and then at the sonogram. He went back and forth between them for a while before looking up. He turned to look at Olivia, but she wasn't in the room anymore. Elliot climbed out of bed quickly and moved out of the bedroom. Olivia was sitting on the sofa in her robe, tears slipping down her flushed cheeks.

"Why'd you leave?" Elliot mused.

"You wanted to try for a baby, El... but now that I'm pregnant, you don't want a baby with me anymore. You can't keep changing your mind, Elliot. And if you don't want this baby, then we can't be together," Olivia whimpered, her heart broken into a million little pieces.

Elliot shook his head quickly and sat beside her. He placed a hand against her stomach before using his free hand to turn her head to face him.

"I want the baby, Olivia. I want you and this baby more than you ever know. I love you both so much, and I can't wait to watch as your belly swells with our child. This is good news... actually, this is amazing news. I was just surprised how quick it happened," Elliot replied.

"But-"

"No, Liv! I'm happy! I promise to be an amazing father to our baby and a partner to you! I will start planning to divorce Kathy so this baby has both of us no matter what," Elliot smiled.

Olivia bit her lip to try to not sob, but she failed. She quickly wrapped her arms around Elliot and hugged him tightly.

"You are going to be an amazing mother, Liv. The absolute best mother."