Eye of the public | Seo Changbin

Chapter 19

"There you are, Changbin!"

Jisung entered the gym at JYP and saw Changbin sitting at the bench press.

"What are you still doing here? It is almost three am."

"I couldn't sleep, thought that working out might help to get my mind a bit clearer" He took a big gulp from his bottle and walked over to Jisung.

"You can talk to us, you know? You spent more and more time here, instead of talking about your feelings you bottle everything up."

Changbin ignored the younger and just brushed past him to get to the lift.

"Changbin, it's been eight months! I know that you miss her and that you still love her but you should at least try to move on. Talk to someone, anyone, about it. Please, we are worried. We hear you crying sometimes at night but as soon as someone comes in, everything is supposedly fine. It's okay to be heartbroken Changbin, but you shouldn't drown in it."

Changbin looked shocked but didn't reply anything for the whole way down.

"Okay."

Jisung looked somewhat reliefed but the worry still stuck deep in his bones.

"How about we go out tomorrow with Chan? Like the old days when it was just 3Racha." Jisung suggested while following the older out of the building.

"Yeah, I'd like that"

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"I haven't been here in ages!" Chan exclaimed while entering the bar,
"The owner changed since last time but I hope everything is still as good!"

The three entered and were happy that the interior design didn't seem to have changed much. They immediatley headed for their familiar booth in the back.

"I'll go order, you two sit down already" Chan offered and headed towards the bar.

"It feels weird coming here" Changbin suddenly admitted causing Jisung to look up from his fixed gaze on the dessert menu.

"Why?"

"I used to come here before I got together with Riley, back when I thought my love was one-sided. I would sometimes need a distraction and coming here with you guys seemed to do just that. Then I got together with her and we debuted and a lot of things changed. We sometimes went together to bars or clubs but always as a couple. Now I'm back here, single."

Jisung didn't know what to reply to that but he was happy that Changbin had started to open up. Just then Chan joined their table and the three fell into more relaxed chatter.

"I miss her and I don't know how to make it stop."

The three had already had a few drinks, loosening them up a little and Changbin felt like that was exactly what he needed to open up to his brothers.

"You can't make it stop. That's not how it works. You are heartbroken and you won't just get over a five year relationship within a day" Chan started and took another sip, "but you can start to think of your relationship from a different angle.

Right now you only see what you lost and that you may never get it back but that isn't what your relationship consisted of. Think of it as an important period in your life that brought you joy and made you learn things, something that gave you so many memories. You just have to accept that all that is only a memory anymore, but it doesn't need to be a bad one."

Jisung looked at Chanin awe, "You are great with your words Channie."

Changbin chuckled at the youngest but knew that everything Chan said was true.