Love, Pain & Me

un-dignified

I'm an animal
And i have instincts to tame
For my love to not sacrifice my heart
Not my dignity for fame
Spectacular as it is
Yet leaving your house is a walk of shame
So tell me, Darlin
Who is to blame?
For I,
I am the same man
Making the same mistakes
Again and Again

I look back at my past
And my present. Nothing has changed
Believing my delusional mind
I'm losing my grasp of reality
I wonder if I truly am, sane.
For if i am then,
Who do I blame?
Why am I, the very same man
Making the same mistakes
Time and again.

I run for anyone
Who,
If i didn't look so feminine,
Wouldn't give me the time of the day
I chase anyone who just isn't worth it
Like I'm reaching for an unreachable lane
Up at nights and riddled with poisons
I see myself drain
And yet i make the same mistakes
And I'm the same man again
Who was hurt before
Who is hurt again
Blame, who really is to blame?
When I'm lusting for the same object
Again and Again