I DONT RE-READ THESE SO SPELLING MISTAKES MAY OCCUR BLAH BLAH
Basically you have a nightmare about past trauma ⚠️SEVERE TW FOR SA⚠️
No no no he's gone he's dead why is he doing this to me, I killed him why is he here
"Stop why are you doing this to me!"
"C'mon baby you know you want this"
"NO I DONT QUIT IT PLEASE"
"You want this you know you do stop fighti-"
His word were cut of by me kicking him in the gut,tryin to run as best as I can on my shaky legs he grabs me by my wrist throwing my to the floor
"Fuck you" was all I could say before-
Waking up in a cold sweat shaking with a tear stained face i shoot up from my mattress and look around frantically when I see my girlfriend Ellie laying in bed beside me, bringing me to my conscience and laying back down, staring at the ceiling.
Silently sobbing while thinking back to that moment "you know you want this" shaking at the thought of him still being here when my thoughts were interrupted by a familiar voice "y/n? Holy shit what wrong" I turn my head her way looking at her dead in the eyes, while I brake down. "He was h-here he was doing it again I told him to stop but he wouldn't he j-just kept hurting me and forcing me" I say sobbing into Ellie's shirt "shhhh he's not here my love he's gone, he can't ever hurt you again, he will never touch you or talk to you or even fucking look at you, it wasn't real" she say stroking my hair
Eventually I calmed down and my breathing regulated to its normal pace and my body was at ease "it's crazy how you mind can torture you over something that happened years ago, it's horrible what he's done to me" I say nuzzling more into Ellie's chest "I know, it's sickening to know that there's people out there like that, especially that one of those people did that to the lover of my life" she says, slight anger lacing her words. "I'm sorry I do this to you, you're sleeping to peacefully and I have to go and ruin it" "y/n dont ever be sorry for needing comfort, especially after what you've been put through, I will ALWAYS be here for you no matter what, through thick and thin I will always try and help you get through what ever it is you need help or comfort with, I may not be the best at it but trust me I try" "thank you" I say tearing up at her word know that she really does love me, and she would never do anything to purposely hurt or traumatize me.
OK so I know this was a little sad and I just want all of you lovely beautiful amazing people reading this to know if you went through a similar situation like this I want you to know 1. it is never and will never be your fault 2. I know how it is, and I know how hard it can be but please tell a trusted person about what has happened and how they can help you 3. that I love you and i will always be here for you❤️
