The Twelve Letters | Hermitcraft/Empires AU

September 18th + 30th - Letter Nine

September 18th

Xisuma tried to bring you back with a couple of commands.

Okay, I should start from the beginning. But you have your context for this part of the letter, Jimmy.

Xisuma woke me up early morning on the 14th and told me we were going to try and bring you back. He wanted to bring me in case it did work, and it could go on from there. Case in point, explaining what happened in December. He also wanted me to ask you what had happened - Grian had locked himself up apparently.

I would say it's kind of late to start grieving, but people grieve in different ways. So starting to grieve after a few months isn't much of a problem. I guess I was surprised that he was grieving right now.

Anyways, Xisuma led me to a hidden area that didn't seem to have anybody living in it. He took out a command block (which none of us on either the Hermitcraft or Empires servers have seen) and placed it down. He seemed to be talking to himself about how this could go wrong, but I'm not too sure.

He started to type some commands into the command block as I watched behind his shoulder. The commands seemed so complicated that I was surprised how Xisuma knew what to write and not mess up.

Eventually he told me to get back and pressed a button on the command block. It made some weird noises that a broken machine would make, and Xisuma didn't seem happy about it. He tried over and over again (it was the same commands, but he changed letters or numbers up) to the point he started to kick the block to try and get it to work.

It took a few hours for us to realise it wasn't going to work. Xisuma didn't know what to do, and apologised. He didn't need to. I told him that.

It's a shame, really, that it didn't work. But I guess we'll have to roll with it.

September 30th

It's almost the end of the year and I guess I'm starting to accept what had happened. I'm not completely sure though.

Xisuma had asked if he should try again but I told him no. It's a bad response when I should want you back so we can leave the accident behind. I'm regretting it. I don't want more pressure on Xisuma though.

I payed a visit to Grian, who tried to get me away, but I didn't go away. He eventually let me in and we talked about what happened. He kept apologising and saying it was his fault but I told him it wasn't. I guess I've been realising it slowly that it was never his fault. I never mentioned it in the letters. I just didn't want to write a whole ass story about what I've done every day minute by minute.

Now, though, it's time to start closing this gap of grief, Jimmy. I know a way to do it. Just wait for the next letter and you'll see what I mean.