Dear Mom,
Hey, I'm sorry I haven't come to see you in a little while but I was getting so bad lately that I didn't know if I could face the look you would get if I started to cry. You always cried when I started which only made both of us cry harder. I wouldn't have been able to deal with any of that. Mom, I miss you. I'm sorry I left you like this, I just couldn't take it anymore. Last week, on Louis' birthday I start to see him, my imagination convinced me he was back, that he was only gone because he was in a coma and when the boys helped me see he wasn't actually there, it got so much worse. I lost Lou all over again, I couldn't do it anymore.
You were the best person I could've asked for to raise me, you are the sweetest and the most loving woman in the world, and that's why I'm the sorriest to you, you don't deserve your child dying but it was the only way I could think to finally ease the pain I've been feeling. Mom, I want you to know that yes, I was scared but the pain's gone. I'm at ease and I'd like to think that Louis is waiting for me after I die. That I'll be with him now. I need you to keep going, I need you to be strong for Gem, she needs you. I'll see you again, one day but I need you to live mom, you still have so long to go. I can't imagine how it will feel for the boys to tell you about me, I can't even imagine what it was like for them to find me but I'll be okay. I'm okay now. I'm sorry I did this to you.
Mumma, never change your ways and please stay in contact with Jay, I noticed you have drifted apart but you two need to stick together. You guys will do each other well, and let the boys help you. They helped me so much and they are a big part of my family, don't let them slip away from you guys, and don't let them lose themselves. Help each other. Mumma, I need you to be strong for me, I love you.
Love your Babyboy
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Can't Let Him Go||L.S.
FanfictionWhere Louis unexpectedly passes from an accident on his way home and Harry can't let go... He just can't let him go and doesn't want to, he just knows he'll see him again, maybe even soon.
