The Diary of an obsessive idiot(diary 4)

struggling

i've torn the ligament in my foot twice in a row, legit two months in a row, same fucking ligament. so i'm stuck at home can't go to work.

the chick i like has asked me to go to the movies together, gotta stay in control of myself, it doesn't mean anything no matter how i wish it does, she doesn't like me that way end of story, just accept the fact that i'm alone and be happy with what i've got. anyways i'm more in control than all my previous time catching romantic emotions for someone so... yay, progress?

why the fuck am i even posting this on wattpad? i've unpublished everything i wrote previously, i just want someone to hear me scream into the dark, but whatever i just need to vent to someone without causing harm to any of my existing relationships.

i've had to fuck with my meds, i was in such a good place but i've been put a dozen paces, just gotta keep working on myself to get back to where i'm happy, always got to strive for a better me.