The Diary of an obsessive idiot(diary 4)

Spud

yh, so... i can't tell if she's still treating me like i'm a half-wit.

well i don't think she's intentionally treating me like a buffoon, but idk i feel like she views me as such. it pisses me off thinking that someone i have genuine affection for views me as lesser, a non-threat, someone who's naïve. 

what can i do? really? tell her to stop? tell her to "think of me as a man?" that'll only make me seem more childish. it's a lose-lose situation.

what does it even matter though? not like she'll ever see me as anything more than a friend.