Find Me ~ Lando Norris

XXI

Lando Norris

"I love you" I whispered against her lips, my breath left with those words, my heart wanted to jump out of my chest with happiness I could finally confess what I feel and I wanted her to know that I love her and that I was stupid for letting her go.

"Why is it so hard?" She asked crying, sobbing. Her heart was still hurting, no matter how many times I say it I know I have to work hard to repair what I broke. I wiped away her tears with my thumbs and caressed her cheeks.

"Nothing worthwhile will be easy, but we can try" I said very sure of my words, this time I would do anything for her love.

"If it doesn't work my heart will break even more" she said scared, I can't blame her, it's totally understandable that she feels scared after everything that happened. I'm scared too.

"And if it works?" I said with a half smile "Just imagine how happy we can be if this works" I tried to cheer her up and a smile full of illusion formed on her lips.

"You promise?" She asked.

"I promise to love you every day and to heal our wounds together, to face any obstacle but if you are by my side" I said as a tear left my eyes as she did. The girl in front of me sank her head on my chest and we embraced without saying anything, my eyes closed as I felt her arms around my waist. God only knows how much I missed her.
We parted and walked to my car, she was beaming as if she had lifted a weight off her shoulders, her eyes sparkled and her smile was healing, her golden blonde hair looked beautiful. Once inside the car I rolled down the windows and turned on the stereo.

(Play this if you want)

She knelt on the seat and then leaned her torso out the window stretching her arms as if she was enjoying every second of it. Her hair tangling in the wind off the coast looked like a work of art in the Louvre, two months ago I wouldn't have imagined ever being close to her, being able to touch her or just feel her again. I was always a man who didn't show his feelings because I didn't want anyone to ruin my peace, when I was with other girls I always used my shield because love sometimes sucks. But when Leana is by my side the whole world stops, I don't need to use my shield because my love for her is so real that she would never hurt me, it's just me and her, my problems fade away, the voice in my mind suddenly goes quiet and I only hear her voice as if we were one person, one voice.
When I was with Luisa I had to limit myself to saying certain things or doing certain things, but with Leana I don't have to pretend anything I feel like I can be me, be a complete fool who makes jokes to everyone and she will be there to laugh or maybe make jokes too. I never imagined being this in love, she represents everything I ever wanted in a girl but I must say she is not just any girl, she is the woman I waited for years, she gives me security, peace, strength, she pushes me to be the best F1 driver and she is always there for me in everything.
I wish everyone could have Leana in their lifes, she definitely leaves a mark in everyone's life, she is not a person you can easily forget, I tried and nothing but nothing could get her out of my mind and even less out of my heart.
She is free like the wind but she also needed someone by her side, I know because Zak told me a little bit about her life when she disappeared. I can't imagine what her life was like without her parents and no one to support her, it's very hard to go through a lot of things when you are young and alone, life becomes more complicated and shorter, you feel like you have no way out but nevertheless she is here being free and facing all the problems smiling and giving the best to the people around her, sometimes I don't think I deserve all this because of everything I did to her but now I am more than sure that she is the woman I love and the one I want to be with for the rest of my life.
I turned up the volume of the music, enjoying the night with her, looking every now and then in the rear view mirror to make sure no vehicle could hurt her and making sure she didn't get hit. Her white dress danced with the wind coming through the windows and exposed her legs up to the sleeve of the dress revealing more of her perfect body, she was still enjoying the moment, she is free, we are free.