Roses🥀 [ Kavetham Oneshots || Scenarios . ]

"restart." 🥀

[ Part 2 of "one last time." ]
[ Angst? Comfort? ]
[ Reincarnation Kaveh AU. Or is it?]
[ My own Headcanons ]
[ Short + Doesn't make sense. ]
[ Bad grammar, dear readers. ]

Timeskip, a year later.

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Alhaitham's POV.

It's been a year ever since Kaveh is not here. I'm still trying my best to move on from his death. It's not easy. It is never that easy to move on from your loved ones death.

I tried to distract myself by working late at night since I was The Acting Grand Sage, so there's a lot of work to do. I tried to keep myself as busy as possible, by going out for drinks at the tavern too.

But sometimes, I couldn't talk with a few certain people. Sometimes whenever I talk to someone that has blonde hair with a nice personality, it reminds me of Kaveh.

Especially that one Traveller with his floating companion. He reminds me of Kaveh. His golden locks, remind me of Kaveh.

I wore some of Kaveh's favorite accessories, which is his blue feather. He said that this feather was gifted from his parents when he was a kid and he adored it so much, so I wore it. I wore his earrings, too. It seems quite distracting, but he loves it so much. He said that the color reminds him of my eyes. My eye color. I remembered the time I bought this for him at the Grand Bazaar. He was so excited when he got the earrings. By that, he never took them off. Never.

But there's something bothering me a bit. I forgot something. I forget one of my favorite details about him. His eye color. What color are his eyes? I only could remember his eye color by looking at the pictures of us together. What is his vision? I don't remember. What is his height? I also once forgot.. How he actually looked like. His presence, his warmth. I forgotten about it once. But the pictures and the sketches that he did inside of his sketchbook really helped a lot.

His sketchbook is full with my portrait drawings, portraits of us embracing each other, his favorite food, accessories and even a picture of us getting married.

Oh how I missed him a lot.

Most people said I have changed ever since Kaveh died.
I became more distance from people. I became more ignorant. All I want to do is avoid people.

I couldn't get enough sleep most nights, either. The last few nights after his death was, terrible. Incredibly terrible. I'm having nightmares about him. The traumatic scene repeating in my head the whole time. His shaking voice..

"Not.. yet..". It hurts me. He seems so afraid of dying.

I even get hallucinations of him sometimes. Thankfully, Tighnari and Cyno was there to help. Tighnari gave me medications to help me stop from hallucinating. Those hallucinations damaged me a lot. Physically and mentally. My anxiety getting a lot worse than ever. I get panic attacks easily, especially when I was hallucinating about him. The scene really traumatized me a lot. Like I said, it damaged me physically mentally and emotionally.

It was lunch, I suddenly felt like eating today so I cleaned up my desk and put one of Kaveh's favorite flowers, Padisarah inside a vase that is on top of my desk. I grabbed my earpiece and the book that I am currently reading.
As I was leaving my office, I bumped into someone. Both of us groan from the pain. ( Let's pretend that there's actually a door instead of elevator ok )