Roses🥀 [ Kavetham Oneshots || Scenarios . ]

"gender and body dysphoria." 🌱

writing this while having body dysphoria. also grammar mistakes because i feel shit and this is written during midnight.

Tags : Trans Alhaitham (FTM), soft Alhaitham, vulnerable Alhaitham, Supporting Kaveh, slightly ooc, hating deadnames, gender dysphoria, body dysphoria, angst, hurt and comfort.

! Listen to Flawless by The Neighbourhood for scenarios ~ !

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Alhaitham doesn't usually cared about what people said to him. He finds it annoying to care about it and in the end- feeling emotional about it. For him, those people who said mean stuff to him are just jealous of his flaws- so why should he care about it?

But a comment that he received today makes him emotionally down and unable to control his emotions.

He was on the way to the Akademiya. His usual morning routine is going to a regular cafe, grab a coffee and go to the Akademiya. But today, Kaveh left a note on the refrigerator before going to meet his client;

"Good morning, lovely,

I know you are busy today, but can you help buying groceries? I have a few meetings with clients so I had to leave early. Please buy me a few eggs, a packet of tofu and a bottle of ketchup, please? Thank you habibi.

I'll see you tonight~"

-Your dear, Kaveh.

This is no a big deal to Alhaitham- in fact he actually needed to go to the store to buy something.

A new binder.

Few days before, when Alhaitham was looking through reports, a scholar asked him a question-;

"Scribe Alhaitham, sorry to ask but why is your chest big? As in- big like a girl's.. chest. And why do you look feminine? I'm sorry to ask."

This made Alhaitham paused. Do I look that feminine? He asked himself. This made Alhaitham reevaluate himself-

Am I too feminine?

Do I look like a girl?

Do I look like A̶n̶i̶s̶a̶?

He hates this feeling. He hates it.

He despises it.

At the question- he ignored it and decided to look through the report that the scholar gave him. After all, he knows about the scholar. Known for their rebellious behaviour with women.

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As he is walking to the store, pushing down the shopping trolley- looking through the note that Kaveh gave him. He picked a few things- such as men's deodorant and men's perfume. Perhaps this makes him more masculine and presentable.

And then he ended up at the women's section- a binder.