Saving Stella - A Stellaride story

Absence makes the heart grow fonder (49)

Stellas POV*

I look up from the floor at Kelly staring at me, a sense of urgency in his eyes, as he pleads for me to give him an answer.

"I need time to think about it Kelly, I know what I want, and that's you, It's always you, but this..." I pause as I start pointing between us "this isn't us...I dont wan't this to be the start of something that breaks us apart, so im gonna need time to step away from this, just for a couple of weeks" I say looking at kelly as he looks down clearly knowing what im about to say next before he looks back up and exhales a breath he seemed to have been holding in

"I called Brett whilst you were out, shes agreed to let me and the kids stay at hers for a while, to give us both the space we need,  now thats not me saying you can't come and see us because thats not what I want" I finish as I look at kelly wipe a tear away from his eyes before looking up at me. 

"If that's what you want..." he pauses as he stands up and comes over to me "I'll do anything to make you happy, because I don't ever want to let you go..." he says as he holds my arms and I walk into his chest as we embrace

"if time is what you need, time is what i'll give you" I hear him say as he strokes my back.

...

I decided to leave for Brett's that night, Kelly reluctantly helped me pack some clothes in a bag for the kids. I could tell he didn't want me to leave but space is what we need right now if we are to get through this. 

I finish packing the car as Kelly closes the back doors as he fitted the babies in their seats I go round to the drivers side as Kelly comes over to me and grabs my hand before I can open the door

"Im gonna miss you, all of you" he says as he looks at me sadly and I cup his face in my hand "this is what we need to do kelly" I say as I pull his face into mine and kiss him as he rests his forehead on mine as toby bangs his toy on the window at us and we both look at him 

"dadaaaa" he squeals as he starts speaking in baby language neither of us understanding what he was saying. Kelly stepped back from me as he put his hands in his pockets 

"this isnt good bye kelly, brett said your welcome round any time" I say as I look at kelly before opening my door and climbing in the car, once I shut the door I turn to look at kelly as he lifts his hand up a little and waves as I pull away I look in my side mirror and see him watching the car as he appears to wipe a tear away

was this the right decision, I thought to myself as I drived to Bretts. 

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Kellys POV

it has been a whole day since Stella left for Bretts, I have not moved from the sofa just sat staring at nothing missing the noise of cartoons on the TV, missing Toby's little taps on the flooring as he runs around, the little noises from the babies when they are waking up. and then there's Stella I miss her next to me, I miss it all, even the parts that seemed to annoy me like her cold feet against my back as I tried to sleep.  

I know she said I could go round to see them whenever I wanted, but this is our home, they are supposed to be here with me, all 5 of us, with Toby sat watching the TV, whilst me and Stella fed the babies. 

I decide to stop feeling sorry for myself as I stand up, still in yesterdays clothes as  I grab my keys and head out to my car as I get in and drive to Bretts

once I arrive I knock on and wait for someone to answer but no one answers, I guess they might not have heard, I ring the doorbell and I hear it ring inside, still no one answers so I call Stella