All Those Lies

22.Past

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I can't believe I kissed Rey. I had kissed before but this one with Rey feels different. It was special.

Now I'm back to hell. I hate this house. I want to go far. Far away from here.

But now all I can think about is Rey. My grumpy unicorn. But am I really doing this? Where will this lead me to? What if.. what if he gets to know that I.....

"Where did you go?" Dad's words scares me.
"What do you want?" I ask him. Not ready to fight again.

"Where were you the whole day?"

"Don't play this father-daughter game. I'm tired. Give me a break."

"Eve!"

"Eve what? Don't you think I know why you're here. Just to lemme know you have always had other important things to do than me?"

"Dear I care about you. It's just how my job is."

"No you don't care. This wasn't your job. You chose this. You wanted to go away. You."

"I'm always there for you. I call you and you don't answer them. Who's responsible for that??"

"Can you tell me the last day I was happy? The last time I cried? You can't, can you?. You never cared Dad. Never. You always thought of yourself. Always."

"No Eve. Hear me out."

"I don't want to hear you out. I don't. Why would I? Did you ever hear me? Ever? After Mom died you kept yourself busy so that you don't think of her. You shifted your job else where. But have you ever thought that by trying to forget mom you forgot about me? That I exist? That I needed you? You weren't there Dad. You never were. And now I don't want you. Get out."

"Eve listen to me dear."

"Go Dad please go."

"I'm your Dad."

"You died the day Mom died."

"Eve!" He attempts to slap me but stop midway.

"Yes slap me. I will be able to finally tell everyone my dad is a fucking monster."

He left. He finally gave up on me the way I gave up on myself.

I'm lying on the floor.

Useless

Worthless

Alone

I miss Mom. These are the days I hope she'd take me with her.