All Those Lies

18.Past

                                                        𝔼𝕍𝔼

Usually I get pretty wasted in a party but last night I could hardly enjoy. I missed Rey.
I remind myself this is not love. I can't fall for him but I can't also stop thinking about him. I feel free when I am with him. I don't need to pretend that I am happy. Need not to pretend that I am cool.

So here I'm knocking his door. It reminds me of a song.

He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says, "You look beautiful tonight"
And I feel perfectly fine.

He looked a bit amused when he saw me.
"Hiiiiii!" I say a little loudly
He smiles.
I get in his home. He didn't tell me I looked beautiful but I feel fine. This place feels like home.

"What were you doing? I didn't disturb you right? Even if I have you gotta deal with." I can't stop grinning.

"No. Thanks."
"No thanks?" That's rude.
"Thank you for coming."
"You sure?" I narrow my eyes at him.
"Yeah." He rub his neck and continued
"Usually no one visit me so I.. I was just shocked to see you. Thanks for coming." He smiled.
"Then answer my question." In response he raised his eyebrow.
Huh. What I'm going to do with this boy.
"Show me the house." I request him.
"Come with me."

It literally took us 10 minutes to stall around the whole house. It's big but my eyes are at the black door that he hasn't shown me and neither has any plan to do so. Is he hiding any atom bomb? Omg is he an terrorist?

"That's the gaming room." Shit did he hear me?
"Game?" I ask stupidly. He nods. He then opens the room and waits for me.

That's the most aesthetic room I have ever seen. Straight from Pinterest. This room is enormous. At the corner there is a whole gaming station but the other three walls are stuffed with books.

"This must me be your favorite place?" I smile and ask.
"This is my only place." My smile faded. That sentence is deep. I'm sure he doesn't let anyone come here. I'm suddenly afraid. Afraid of all the things. Afraid of us.

Eve focus. "Okay the last thing I would like to do is read books. Why don't we play games. I have skills." I wink at him but nope I suck at this too.

He sets up every thing and lend me the controller.
"You play. I'll be back in a minute."

After exactly a minute he brought some chips and coke. The normal one. Not the diet coke. Impressive.

"You didn't start yet?" He asks.
"I don't know how.. " I mutter.
He smiles and sits beside me.

Okay he taught me all the stuffs but I still sucks. But all he does is smiles and corrects me.

"I'm not gonna play this shit. You play." I throw the controller away. His eyes follow where the controller landed on the carpet. Before he says anything I pick it up and place it safely and apologize.

He laughs and pats my head. I grin like an idiot.

"Have you completed the new physics assignment?" He asks.
Here we go again.
Now I'm sitting in his bed room. Doing homework.

But

But

But

He made me lasagna. <3