**ON HIATUS** The People We Are Supposed To Be (Boyxboy)

Part 1

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TW: n/a

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I bit my lip, staring at the back of his head. Of course he had to sit right in front of me.

His silky light brown hair was slicked back and I recalled the piercing look in his brown eyes that were so dark, you could mistake them for black. 

I wanted to hate him. I wanted to hate him for everything he did to me. I wanted to hate him for everything he had put me through. He didn't care about me. So why did i still care about him?

I hated feelings. I wish i could be emotionless. I wish i never cared about anyone. Life would be so much easier that way. 

"Christopher Carter?" The teacher called, glancing up from his desk.

"Here," I muttered, picking at the soles of my shoes.

Mr. Green called a couple more names but I wasn't really listening. I knew all of these people already: it was already the 5th of October.

I hated this school. I hated this teacher. I hated everyone here. I just wanted to go home. Well, i didn't want to go home. I wanted to be alone, that was what i wanted. There was nothing here that made me want to be here. The boy sitting in front of me had been my only person who made me happy.

But now I lost him. 

"Ashlynn Ford?" Mr. Green said, snapping me out of my thoughts.

I dug my fingers into my palms, trying to think of something else, anything else. 

I risked a glance up at her, catching her eyes. She had bright blue eyes the color of the sky, redish brown hair and her face was covered in makeup.

I darted my eyes away quickly, staring down at my hands.

She hated me. I'm not one hundred percent sure why.

We had dated, last year, in 10th grade. And she now hated me.

I had never really liked her to be honest. Darrin thought it would be a good idea for us to date and then she asked me out and honestly, i didn't know how to say no. And then we dated for a little bit.

And look where that led me...

But either way, we broke up. I caught her cheating on me with Darrin. Honestly, i was kind of happy about that. I had been trying to find a way to break up with her but i never could bring myself to do it.

 And now Ashlynn hates me. And so does Darrin. 

And guess what? They're dating now. 

The door burst open, snapping me back to the current world. I glanced up, seeing a guy walking through the door who seemed to be about my age, maybe a little older. He had sandy blonde hair and sage green eyes that reminded me of leaves. He looked like a surfer dude but he seemed less, how do i say this? Self-centered i suppose is the best way to put it. He was tall, probably about six feet.

Of course, he has to be taller than me. Well, pretty much everyone is taller than me. 

I had always been the short kid, so whenever i was around someone tall, it automatically made me feel like i had to try to be better than them. But it was also kind of cute.

No, Chris, stop. You messed it up with him. Move on. Get over it.

"Who are you?" Mr.Green asked, his eyebrows raised in exhaustion and confusion.

"Alec, Alec Raven," He smoothed out his shirt, smiling.

He was wearing a white t-shirt, a red flannel hoodie and dark blue jeans. His white high tops were somehow spotless.

"Ah yes Alec, take a seat," He waved his hands at the desk, staring down at his paper, checking off a name on it.

I glanced down at my notebook, zoning out the rest of the world. I picked up my pencil, flipping to an empty page in my book. I didn't know what to draw. I honestly wasn't feeling that creative right now.

That was really odd. I drew all the time. My creativity was never low. But now, my mind decided to stop working.

"Mind if i sit here?"

I looked up to see the new kid standing there, pointing to the seat next to me.

"What?" I asked, my eyebrows raised. I had heard full well what he had said but I didn't really believe it. I wasn't the most approachable looking kid.

"I asked if I could sit here," his smile sparkled in the sunlight.

He looked way too happy. He had just transferred to a new school with a bunch of kids he didn't know. He had to be psycho to be happy. 

"No, i heard you, i just- never mind, yeah go ahead, sit," I shook my head, "I'm Chris by the way."

"Nice to meet you, I'm Alec, but I guess you already know that," He laughed, extending his hand towards me.

I shook his hand nervously then closed my notebook, placing it on top of my laptop lightly.

"Nice to meet you to Alec," I forced a smile, but honestly it wasn't as forced as it normally was.

I don't know why, but he didn't seem to piss me off as much as everyone else did. Sure, he kind of annoyed me, but not as much as everyone else. I don't know why. Maybe because he hadn't done anything to make me hate him yet. Darrin was the only other one who made feel like that.

Chris, stop thinking about him. He gave up on you. You need to get over it.

"You okay?" Alec asked, a southern accent slipping into his voice.

I glanced up at his face, seeing concern flashing across it.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I lied, picking at my lips, feeling blood under my fingers.

"You sure?" He tilted his head to the side slightly.

"Why do you care so much?" I asked, rolling my eyes.

I didn't know how to feel about him. No one really ever cared about me. I never really had any friends other than Darrin, my parents were always working and even when they weren't, they were dealing with my siblings.

I honestly don't know how to feel about him caring. And besides he was the new kid and I'm the weird kid that had a fall out with the most popular kid in the school. He probably wouldn't want to be friends with me after he learned anything about me.

"Why shouldn't i care?" He laughed again, running his fingers through his hair.

"I- well-" I started then the bell rang, interrupting me.

"Don't worry about it Chris," Alec winked then walked out the door with more confidence than I've ever had. He literally looked like he owned the place and he hadn't even been here for fifteen minutes.

I stared after him, shaking my head.

If this boy decided to stay around me, he was going to be the death of me.

(word count: 1131)

Editors Note:

Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed this chapter! The rest of the chapter might be a little shorter than this one but i think this is a good start. If y'all have any comments about this, please let me know!