The Brave Slytherin

The confrontation?

After Hermione and I had finished talking we went to our first class of the day. We had potionsclass together with Draco, Harry, Ron, Pansy and ofcourse Mattheo. Professor Slughorn was our teacher this year and he told us that we needed to work in duo's this class. I luckily got put together with Draco, but we were sat next to Mattheo. So, I didn't have to work with Mattheo, but we were still so close to eachother that Draco and Pansy (who worked with Mattheo) both noticed the tension between Mattheo and me. They asked us what was wrong, but we both just answered with 'Nothing'. Thank goodness that was enough for Draco and Pansy to not ask us again for the rest of the class. During the rest of the class, there was not a word said between Mattheo and me. So, I was happy when the class was over and I had a gap hour. This meant that I had a little bit of time to head up to the lake and just take a second to breath and put the whole situation with Mattheo out of my head for a little. 

Only I wasn't able to do that, because Mattheo had a gap hour as well and knew that I probably would be at the lake. So, I had about 3 minutes of silence, before Mattheo sat down next to me. 'Hey' he said. 'Hey... I.' Before I could start my sentence he cut me off and started talking. 'Wait, don't say anything. I wanted to apologize for what I said.' Why is he apologizing? 'Why are you apologizing? I'm the one who said some messed up shit to you. And I'm so sorry for that.' 'No, please stop saying you're sorry. I forgive you. You already said you're sorry this morning and I should have said it then as well. I should not have cursed at you. You were dealing with something, I don't know what, but there must have been something, because I have never heard you say anything remotely mean to anyone before. So, for you to have said something like that, I must have really hurt you. And instead of finding out, what was wrong, I just got angry at you and I'm sorry about that.' I can't accept his apology. I just can't. He didn't do anything wrong. His anger was completely justified, so he doesn't have anything to apologize for. He doesn't have to say sorry, because I got mad at him for kissing another girl eventhough we're not even remotely together. Maybe I should tell him why I got mad. But, what if he doesn't feel the same? What if I make him mad again? I can't tell him, not yet at least. The only thing I could say to him was this: 'Thank you for apologizing, but I can't accept it.' 'What do you mean you can't accept it.' He looked at me confused. 'I can't accept it, because you did nothing wrong. I fucked up, not you. I get why you got angry, because I said some messed up stuff and I wish I could take it all back.' 'I wish to take it all back too.' 'Okay, than let's do that. Just accept that it happened, but leave it in the past. Are you okay with that Mattheo?' 'More than okay!' 'Thank you!' And as I said that I just gave him a tight hug, because eventhough we didn't speak for a couple hours, it felt like forever. 'That's what friends are for right?' Mattheo said during our hug. 'Right' I said, knowing that it hurt me, hearing him call me just a friend. 

Mattheo's POV

'That's what friends are for right?' I said to Y/N. Knowing I wanted to say something else, but not wanting to risk ruining this moment. I wish she would've told me she wanted to be more than friends, but all she said was: 'Right.'