The Brave Slytherin

Why would I say that?

When I woke up, Mattheo was already up and reading a book. He said good morning and asked me how I was doing. 'I'm fine.' is all I could say. I was still mad at him, eventhough I don't know why. It's not like he's mine, so he can make out with anyone he wants. He noticed that I wasn't fine, because he said 'Y/N, what's wrong? You only say you're fine, when you're really not fine. So, please talk to me.' 'There's nothing I want to talk about.' 'Can you please tell me what I did wrong?' 'You didn't do anything wrong, Mattheo.' 'Then why are you mad? Is this about Daphne?' How does he know, that it's about Daphne? I thought he was too busy with her, to even notice I was there. 'It's nothing Mattheo. And why would it be about Daphne? It's nothing new that you make out with a random slut, to than be done with her the moment your lips part.' 'Okay, damn. Fuck you, Y/N.' 'I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. It just... Well nevermind.' 'It just what Y/N?!' 'It's nothing, please leave it. I'm sorry for what I said. Can we please forget this?' 'Sure, I have to go. I'll see you later.'
And with that he left. I fucked up. He is my best friend and I just basically called him a whore for making out with random girls all the time and then dumping them immediately. I hate myself for saying that. But, I cannot take it back, so I'm just going to get ready for the day and hopefully Mattheo and I can just forget this ever happened. I can't handle him being mad at me, but I don't blame him for it.

When I finished getting ready for the day, I went to breakfast where I sat across from Mattheo. He was talking to Draco and Pansy, while I was just staring at my plate, not eating anything. Theo sat next to me and asked me what was wrong. Mattheo overheard and glanced at me before going back to his conversation. I looked up at Mattheo and back at my plate, before saying that everything was alright. Theo answered with 'Y/N, everything is not alright. You haven't even touched your food. In the passed year that we have known eachother, I have never seen you leave your french toast without touching it.' 'I'm okay Theo.' When I said that Mattheo and I glanced at eachother one more time, before I stood up and walked away out of the great hall.

Before I even got out of the great hall, Hermione had already caught up with me and asked me what happened. She saw that something was wrong, so she decided to see if she could do anything for me. I trust Hermione with all my secrets, so I decided to talk to her about what happened. We walked into an empty room together, where I told her all about how Mattheo made out with Daphne last night, how it hurt me and what I said to Mattheo this morning. While telling her, I started to tear up. Mattheo and I never fight, so the fact that we argued like that this morning is hurting me even more, than him making out with Daphne.
After I told Hermione everything she asked me 'Why do you think it hurt you so much to see Mattheo with Daphne?' 'I don't know. He's my best friend, so I think I just want him to be happy with someone who is good to him, not some random girl, who he will dump after an hour.' 'Yeah, but why does it hurt you?' 'I really don't know Hermione.' 'Is it possible you like Mattheo?' 'Ofcourse I like Mattheo, he's my best friend.' 'I'm mean like him as more than friends? I see how you two look at eachother. I see how you get mad when he makes out or even talks to other girls. And I see how he gets mad when you dance with other guys at parties.' 'I....I... maybe. I never really thought about it.' Ofcourse I had thought about it, but I couldn't right? He is my best friend. I can't like him as more than that. I can't ruin our friendship because of how I feel. 'Y/N maybe you should talk to Mattheo about that?' Hermione said. 'I can't Hermione. What if he doens't feel the same way. What if I ruin our friendship even more than I already did this morning.' 'I don't think it would ruin your friendship. I just think it will help Mattheo understand why you reacted like that this morning. And I don't think you have to worry about Mattheo not liking you like that. I think he likes you just as much.' 'I don't think so. I think he just sees me as a friend. But, I'll think about it okay?' I know Mattheo doesn't like me like that. If he would, he wouldn't make out with all those girls, right? After I told Hermione I would think about it, I wiped the remaining of my tears away and told her we had to go to class, so on our way we went.