The Hidden Pain.

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RAI'S POV.

Esa jaduu kya kiya tune
Aaj jaane ka man nahi karta.
Chahe yeh jism kal raakh ho jayen
Par tujhko chorke shayad yeh rooh yahi tere pass akey took jayen..

Kash tu kabhi na ataa zindagi mein
Kash tu kabhi haath na thamkar apne baho mein leta..
Ab jab kshan aa gayi virah ki
Kyon na rehte hue bhi lagte hon itne kareeb.
Mere paas dene ke liye kuch nahi..par lene ke liye bhi kuch nahi. Akhir rishta hi itna khaas hain ki kuch tootne se bhi woh naya sa lagta hai.
Mujhe zindagi mein kuch miley ya na mile lekin shayad hi koi hoga jo kisiko tumhari tarah ishq kare.

 Mujhe zindagi mein kuch miley ya na mile lekin shayad hi koi hoga jo kisiko tumhari tarah ishq kare

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I was so drowned in my thoughts, I didn't realise that I actually wrote ten pages. All thanks to the nurse who brought me to reality.
"Ma'am your juice!" "Oh!" I sighed and tore a random page and kept the paper inside an envelope.
"Excuse me can you call my husband".
"Yes sure.." she nodded and went outside while I waited for him.
The fate is so strange. It took away my everything, my parents, my friends and then still it isn't enough to take away from my Keshav. Whenever I feel at ease to stay calm and happy, the fate breaks the heart everytime. So I promised myself that "jo kal karna hain aaj karte hai be-jhijak kyonki kya pata kal ho na hon.." It's funny right when death is knocking on the door, you are still obsessing songs just to fit in the vibe. All the dreams are now shattered. Soon my name will be suffixed after 'Late'. Uma and Shraddha will grow up without me.
Even thinking these thoughts I'm smiling. I'm messed up for sure. I'm a ridiculous fated women who did nothing but swayed everyone's life.
I remembered our pastimes when I was just in myself wanted to die and go to them. Its just then he entered and taught me positivity. He filtered my life with light.
Whenever I will die I will only make a wish that whenever I will born I will fall in love with him no matter one sided or two sided.. it's so funny that I'm seriously dying being sarcastic. I was laughing at myself when the nurse came and informed he was not at the hospital.
"Ma'am are you okay?" "Yaa I'm just thinking how we don't get things when we want them very much."
I could see the nurse couldn't understand my phrase but yes I was still myself. I'm glad that I didn't changed infact I am actually the better Rai than what she was before.
POV ends.

She gazed her locket which was kept above the drawer. She slowly got up and managed to take it. She sighed and smiled. "Kismat ka khel Rabb hi jaane!" She kissed the photo of her parents in the locket of her.

Keshav 's POV.

I consulted with the doctor but he moved his head in a no. I was shattered. How she dared to go away from me this early. I found myself in a vulnerable state. I wanted to cry but can't. Who will be the one after her controlling me? Who will be the one who will hold my hand whenever I need? Whom will I hug and cuddle when I want warmth. I know every one come and go but living life without those people isn't easy. How could I live? How could I manage all things?
Damn! She is so bad!.

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