My Alpha (Girlxgirl)

Chapter 22: "For Yourself"

Chapter 22

EMI'S POV

The thought of Megan could not leave my mind. What happened to her car? What happened to her? I didn't know what to do anymore. Sitting here, watching Kiera getting dressed but the thought of Megan lingering in my mind. It didn't make sense. This was wrong in so many way. What she said about over an hour ago, how she didn't want to be involved with me because she couldn't put a name for us, neither could I, has been consuming all my thoughts since. It was wrong being held by Kiera and only the thought of Megan in my mind.

"You're going to be there?" Kiera spoke.

"In case you forgot, I am the heir to this pack, what choice do I have? I am also curious of what you have to say." Kiera looked away and pass the glass window. "I don't get why you can't tell me right now, I'm going to find out anyways or do you plan on lying?"

The blonde's head quickly turned towards my direction. "Are you accusing me?"

I didn't realize what I had said but now it was too late. I can't believe I had said that out loud. You're a fucking dumb ass Emi! "No, of course not. But, when you've been away for years, you can't blame me for wondering where you have been." I said as calmly as possible, trying to reassure her that I was not accusing her for anything.

"You want to know what I was doing these past years?" I nodded my head. "I was protecting your ass from being killed. That's what I was doing." I heard the pain in her voice, the disappointment in her voice. I heard it all and it killed me. She then walked out of the room, leaving me alone, sitting on the bed.

I sighed and ran my hand through my blonde locks, laying back on the soft mattress. I didn't know what I was doing anymore. Why was this happening? I don't get why my life has turned out this way. There's always a problem on top of another. When I feel like everything is finally starting to go right, there's always that something that kills it and says 'no Emi, you're not allowed to be happy so I'll just keep making you suffer'. This is what life is. What is it's purpose?

All I want is to find Carmen and bring her back to where she belongs but how can I when the one place she belongs abandoned her. I want to make a place that is nothing like the place that left her to nothing. In all honestly, the person who hates every part of my being and the person who wants me dead is the only person keeping me going in this fucked up life and I don't even know how that makes sense.

Glancing at the time, I knew it was time to meet in my father's office. Taking a deep breath in, trying to pull myself together, I finally walked out of my room. Walking to the other side of the mansion's second floor, the large wooden door finally came to view. They were all inside already and I could not hear anything since the room is sound proof. As I opened the door, Kiera was already sat on the chair facing my father's desk. Megan standing by the empty chair and my father looking at me in the eyes. It was my first time seeing him since he told me of Carmen. I was still able to see the guilt that bore in his Brown orbs.

"Let's begin." My father spoke, breaking the silence in the room. "Kiera Cameron, we want you to be completely honest with us, is that clear?"

"Yes sir."

"Tell us everything about yourself and where you originate."

"I was a lone wolf at the age of 7. My parents were the only people in my pack. We didn't belong to any large packs such as these. My parents isolated me from everything that dealt with wolves. One day, my parents left me at a church and never came back. It was Ivian who saw me and took me in as his daughter. There, I met Carmen, your daughter was the same age as I, and we became sisters." The old man cringed at the world 'daughter'. Kiera knew and I heard the anger in her voice as she said the word. "She and I grew up as sisters by Ivian. Although he was not the ideal father, he took care of us. He trained us. He was there for us when both our parents left us to nothing. One day, at the age of 13, I was ordered to infiltrate the Evergreen pack and kill the next successor. I did not hesitate to take in the job. I never disobeyed Ivian and I never planned to. I got in and time passed and I gained all your trusts. So, Ivian decided to postpone the murder of the heir and become a spy. I spied on your pack and everything I heard, I ran back to Ivian to inform him each time. But, as times passed. I grew attachments. This pack had something mine didn't. It was love, trust, and care for one another but I still did everything Ivian told me to do. But one thing. That was to kill the heir. That was the only thing I could not do anymore. He felt betrayed and angry and wished to kill her himself and I couldn't let that happen so I went against his orders and tried to protect her on my own but as you can see, that caused my banishment. He made it clear that if I were ever to step foot back here again, he would kill both Emi and I with no remorse."