Trust me..

Chapter 9🤍🤍

Josh's POV:

There's blades, bandages, blood, and all sorts that make me want to be sick. There also a diary. Do I read it ? No that's her private property. But this is a stressful time and I need to know what's going on in her mind. I'm gonna need to read it.

I sit down and open the diary. It's almost half full. Full of dates of when she did self-harm and her self-harm stories also with when she is forcing herself to be sick also know as purging.

Finn is behind me and is also reading it. I feel a tear drop on my head.

"Finn are u crying?" I ask.

"..no" he says.

I look at him and he looks mad. "What's up?" I say. Also kinda crying at the same time.

"She is doing this because of all of us. Because of me..." he says. "I just wish she never listened" he says.

I was about to speak but I hear Sophie wake up. I toss her diary into the first aid box and go sit on her bed beside her.

She is already hyperventilating. "Hey hey it's okay you are in your room with me and Finn and you are safe you just passed out okay??" I start.

"I- Daniel- dad- p-passes out? F-Finn?? I c-can't breath Josh!" She says while trying to breathe.

I'm trying everything and it's not working. "Finn nothing is working and if she dosent start breathing in the next 10 seconds she is gonna pass out again!" I say to Finn in a panic.

"Okay move up." He says.

I move.

"Hey Sophie is me finn. Is it okay if I put my hand in you chest?" I say calmly. She half stares but nods.

I put my hand in her chest. " focuse on mt breathing okay?" I say.

"I-I- can't it's n-not working!" She try's to say.

" look at my eyes Sophie." I say and she dose." Keep looking at me and focuse on my breathing thsts all you need to do." I say.

And after a couple seconds it works. But when she bursts out crying.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" she continues on.

"Why" me and Josh say.

"I'm ruining Everything you should have let me take all the pills. Dad would have been happy. And Josh you wouldent have to worry" she says with her head in her hands.

"Hey hey hey don't say that I need you to survive" Josh says.

" I'm so sorry Josh" she continues.

( time skips)

Sophie's POV:

Josh and Finn left my room about 10 minutes ago. They said one I'm ready come downstairs because them and the team want to talk to me. I'm so fucked.  I get I'm and look in the mirror. I'm a fucking mess. Oh well.

I get down the stairs and the first thing I see is Josh holding my kit. Shit.

"Josh why do you have that?" I say.

"Sophia we need to talk" Josh says." Sit down Sophie" he says firmly.

"Josh listen I-" u start but Josh cuts me of.

"Sophie what Happened scared the shut out of me and finding this box made it worse. I'm really worried Sophie. We all are." Josh starts.

I feel a tear run down my face. I know this is gonna be hard.

"Sophie talk to us we are here for you"Jack said.

"I can't you all will just bully me for it" I say.