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Chapter 14 🤍🤍

Daniel finally gets of me after half an hour.

"Don't tell anyone or else josh gets it" Daniel says grabbing hold of my neck and going up to my ear.

I'm holding a panic attack but then he walks out and I burst.

I can't breath and I'm going faint. No this can't be happening again. I can't let Daniel take control of me any more. I love Finn and Daniel can't do this to me. I can't do this again.

My panic attack is geting worse I have to leave.

I get up and practically start running out the house when I feel something grab me. I jump.

"Wow Sophie don't worry it's just me" Jack says.

"Y-ye" I say trying to hide my panic attack.

"Finn just ran out here he looked pissed" Jack says looking at me with a worried look.

"Shit.." I mumble.

"Sophie what's up you don't look to good..." jack says.

"N-nothing" I say and leave his grip.

I leave the party and walk home.

I'm half drunk and half conscious.

I walk in and my dads not home yet. I debate sleeping in the woods so I don't have to deal with dad. But oh well maybe I should just let him kill me.

I need to throw up.

( time skip)

It's Monday morning. I had to go home after the party because I had to get my stuff ready for school. I obviously got beet up.

I just finished making breakfast and walk out the door. I'm walking to school and just thinking about how much anxiety is going through me right now.

Finn.

I walk into school and I have English first period.

Everyone is looking at me because of the whole Daniel cheating thing. But Daniel being the nightmare he is put on social media that he said sorry and we are back together. I obviously had Josh asking be out it but I just said I loved Daniel so Josh didn't worry.

I go sit beside Daniel in English but yet again he is flirting with the other girls.

The hockey boys come up to me. I thought the bullying this was over so I smiled and said hi. Guess not.

"So ribby. How was the party I heard you and Daniel had a good fuck sesh and you might be pregnant" the hockey boys say laughing.

"W-what" I say.

"It would make sence for you to be pregnant you do look like you have gained a couple pounds" Finn says.

Wow Finn really said that. I mean they do have to bully me so it some they don't actually mean it. But hearing Finn say that hurt. I drop a tear. The hockey boys look like they feel bad but they have to laugh.

But finn dosent look like he feels bad.

Stop over thinking.

Then after they are done

"Finns right you look fater. You ate. You are such a disappointment. You should look like amy" Daniel says.

Kill me. Now!

Daniel dose his usual all period and fingers me. I want to throw up.

(Time skip)

It's lunch. Fuck food I'm not eating. I never wanna eat again with all this weight. I weighed myself in PE and I was 46kg. I never will eat again. I deserve to die.

I walk round school all lunch. I can't get what Finn said out my head.

I go to my locker and see a sharpener. And my old screw driver. Do I? No don't? Should I ? No? Do I want to ? Yes.

(Time skip) it's the end of the day. I haven't self-harmed yet. I have had the blade in my hand all day though.

Josh has hockey practice so he won't be home till really late.

I take the long root home and I end up at the park. I sit on the park bench. I'm holding the blade.

Do I ?
Should I ?
Do I brake the promise ?

(Time skip )

It's poring it down with rain. Hockey practice ended.

I'm close. I'm going to self-harm. I need to go see Finn. That's what he told me to do.

I run to Finns and climb up to his window.

It's already open so I just climb in and see Finn. He is...holding a blade.

"Finn.." I say quietly.

He looks at me with no feelings and sees the blade in my hand.

We look eachother in the eye.

"What are you doing here Sophie"Finn says. He sounds mad.

"Y-you said c-come when I want to h-hurt myself.." I say. I'm scared.

"Well that dosent apply now" Finn says and goes to play with his blade.

"Finn-" Finn cuts me of.

"No Sophie. I actually liked you. And you went back to Daniel" Finn says.

" no Finn- it wasent like that!" I say.

"Well you clearly are back together". Finn says.

"Finn-" he cuts me of.

No sophie" he says mad.

I go walk to him to grab his blade so he won't cut and will maybe listen.

I wrap my hand around the blade and go grab it but he is trying to pull it. I'm not letting go of this blade.

Blood is dripping from my hand and once Finn sees he lets go.

"Sophie!" Finn says mad.

He comes and grabs me. I get startled and drop the blade. He picks it up.

"Get out sophie" Finn said.

"Finn-" he cuts me of.

"Get out!" He shouts.

I climb out and walk home in the rain. I'm crying but you can't see it.

I go home because I want my dad to kill me.

I walk in the door.

"Sophie, come here" my dad says.

I practically run to him hoping he will kill me.

"Have you ever had sex?" My dad asks.

If I say yes he will call me a whore. If I say no he will call me a unwanted ugly fat girl.

"Only Daniel" I say. Me and Daniel didn't fuck though I was raped.

My dad drags me to the car.

We are in the car for hours. I wouldn't speak.

"Sophie we are going somewhere you deserve to be" my dad says with a smile.

And when I see where we are I want to run out the car and run away to another planet.

Rose senamore.

It's a place where little girls get frown away and rich old men do whatever they want to the little girls.

"This is where you should have always been Sophie" my dad says with a smile then drags me out the car and in the gate Befor ur shuts.

"Dad please don't leave me here" I beg.

My dad drives away and then three rich grown men drag me inside.

Hear goes nothing.
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Hey guyd hope you liked this chapter the next couple might get a little graphic though.

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