ghostboys

eleven

i don't even know what time it is but i can't sleep. i can hear vance snoring in my ear and it's fucking annoying.

i slowly sit up since i don't wanna wake him and that's when i realize his arms are wrapped around me.

fuck.

i somehow get out of his arms and walk over to where all my jesus stuff is. yeah, i'm like gwen, i talk to jesus.

i grab all my shit and place them down in front of me. i glanced back at vance, making sure he was still asleep and he was.

"jesus im sorry. please forgive me." (🙏🏻🧎‍♀️)

"i just wish everything could go back to normal. i wish i never told them about my dreams. i wish mom was alive. i wish dad wouldn't hurt me or gwen. i wish-i wish bruce was still here."

i thought back to the last time i saw and talked to bruce. i smiled, remembering immediately.

flashback to july 18th 🤍

it was the day of finneys baseball game. he was versing bruce yamada, my best friend.

since we lived pretty close to the field, finney, gwen and i just walked. dad had to work so he couldn't come.

when we got there, finney ran over with his team, yelling gwen and i, a quick "goodbye."

before i could go over to the bleachers with gwen,
i felt a pair of arms wrap around me from behind.

gwen raised her eyebrow and smirked, "see you in a bit."

i turned around and smiled at bruce who was all dressed and ready for the game.

"you're going to do great, bruce." i said to him, smiling.

"thanks. im glad you're here to cheer me on."

and that's when he did something i never thought he would do, he kissed me.

bruce yamada kissed me. (😚)

i kissed back in a matter of seconds.

we pulled away with our foreheads touching.

he was smiling so much and so was i, "that was...." i trailed off.

"amazing."

"BRUCE LETS GO! GAMES ABOUT TO START!" yelled his coach.

"alright!" he yelled back then turned to me, "see you after the game?"

i nodded, still smiling, "after the game."

i watched him walk away and he waved at me before joining his team. i smiled and walked over to gwen who was in shock.

"you-you and bruce just kissed?!" she exclaimed, a little too loudly.

"shhh! and yeah, he kissed me first."

the game went on. bruces team was winning. i cheered for both teams. finney was up to pitch and bruce was up to bat.

"COME ON FINNEY!" gwen and i cheered.

"COME ON BRUCE!" i cheered, along with 10 other girls.

this was about to be strike three. finney pitched but bruce hit the ball, sending it out of the park.

the whole crowd went nuts. i began jumping up and down, "YEAH BRUCE YEAH!"

i could tell finney was upset.

"aw finney." gwen frowned, seeing how upset he was.

bruces team won.

gwen and i went to go see finney but he was talking to bruce. after they were done, bruce looked at me and smiled.

"i have a question." he said, walking over to me.

"what's your question?" i asked, smiling.

"wanna hang out at my house tonight? we can watch movies and stuff." he asked me with a huge smile.

i nodded, "yeah sure. pick me up at 6?"

"pick you up at 6."

i had no idea that would be the last time i ever saw bruce. that night, i waited on my front porch for him. he never showed and i stormed up to my room, upset, thinking he stood me up.

the next morning we got a call saying bruce went missing.

end of flashback 🤍

"please bring bruce back to me, jesus. or let me have another dream about him." i cried, picking up one of my crosses.

"what the fuck are you doing?" vance asked.

i jumped and turned my head to see him sitting up, rubbing his eyes and he was looking right at me.

"um, no-nothing." i whipped my tears away and hid my jesus stuff in one of my shelves.

"were you crying?" vance asked, letting out a laugh.

"shut up." i rolled my eyes and joined him back in bed.

"why were you crying?" he asked, his voice suddenly softened.

i liked this side of vance.

"because of everything that's been going on. i just wish it would go back to normal." i answered, staring into his eyes.

"im sorry about bruce. i heard what you were saying." he whispered, moving a piece of my hair out of my face, his fingers touched my skin.

his touch was magical.
he was so angelic.

"thanks."

after a moment of just staring into each others eyes, vance began leaning in and so did i.

our lips were inches away until my bedroom door opened up and finney and gwen ran inside.

"WHY DID YOU MAKE ME WATCH THAT MOVIE GWEN?" finney whispered shouted at gwen who was laughing away.

"BECAUSE OF YOUR REACTION. ITS SO- oh." she stopped talking when she saw vance and i laying together, in the same bed, together, just us, together.

"hey it's uh not what it looks like." i said, sitting up.

finney just stood there, his mouth wide open, "why is vance here, allie?" he asked, eyeing vance down.

"well, um- im sure you heard about the fight at school and vance came over to help me get cleaned up." i answered, while looking at vance.

"she broke her nose."

i nodded, "yup. i broke my nose."

"we're just gonna..." gwen grabbed finneys arm and pulled him out of the room, closing the door.

i let out a sigh, "that was close. good night vance."

he nodded, "good night allie."