it's 2:59am
she was bleeding from her left arm
she regained conscious just few minutes ago right after she felt the pain
the physical pain.
it's actually insane how she cut herself
after the smallest mental breakdown.
she didn't wanted to do that
but the voices inside made her delusional
to the point, she went outcontrol.
when emotions starts control you,
more than you control them,
it's all over.
she always wished that she was dead
so everyone yelled stop making jokes about dying and k!lling yourself.
"If you want to die so bad, just die already."
.....
she didn't replied.
but she felt her own breathes choking and getting stuck on throat.
it mentally and physically broke her.
but she saw no any other way
other than death to escape this mental agony
because her life was already hell.
she just saw the dark side of everything.
no matter how much she gave love,
she never received it back.
all the men she met in her life
disappointed her in her atleast one time
but that was not only the reason
that she wanted make herself disappear
she slowly realized what caused her
this mental disorders.
it was pathetic realising that
she always had to beg others not to leave her.
she wanted to love someone
without getting hurt.
was it too much to ask?
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Poetrytw// sa, ed & sh if you experienced any of these, i'm so sorry! all my messy thoughts might not be positive at all so think twice before you read my poems. i'm so happy and proud you are still hanging there, you deserve all the love, and you worth i...
