I hate what I see in the mirror

Cross Country pt.2

[A/N- WARNING ⚠️ extremely lewd smut in the second section, right off the bat too. Don't let it startle you, you have been warned⚠️]

3ed POV-

Sasuke felt a cold breeze wash over his body and with much reluctance he opened his eyes. It was still late at night, Itachi was still asleep, sasuke head was laying on his shoulder. The only thing amiss was the blanket that had fallen to the floor. With a groan he sat up to grab it. Just as he was situating it over himself and his brother again he heard a faint sound. It was... mumbling? He sat up again, rubbing the sleep from his eyes so he would see clearly. Long windows, just off to the side of the bed and across from the couch, were open. They led out to a spall balcony. Well it was actually huge, but small for the other balcony's in this house.

Sasuke could barely see it with his fuzzy eyes, but the dim light of the moon cast over a shadow. A silhouette of a man. He was hunched over on the railing holding a phone to his ear, mumbling something to the person on the other line. The raven took a glance at his sleeping brother before slowly slipping off the sofa. Sasuke was careful not to wake him and covered him gently with the blanket.

As he slowly wobbled to the frame of the open window, his socks covering the sound of his footsteps, he recognized the long red hair. Sasuke stayed by the edge of the window, waiting for Kurama to finish his call. At this distance he couldn't clearly hear what they were discussing and even though his curiosity was peeked he thought it best to stay away. He didn't want to invade his privacy.
He hugged himself tighter as the chilling breeze continued to waft in. He wouldn't deny that the open night air was refreshing, but he was almost always cold, so the cold air wasn't as pleasant as it would be for others. After many minutes Kurama finally pulled the phone away from his ear, resting his arms on the railing he dropped his head. A heavy sigh escaped him.

Sasuke slowly approached, his footsteps light and his hair flowing in the cool wind.
"Kura-Nii?"
He whispered as he came around to the older man's side. He jumped slightly at the random voice but seeing that it was Sasuke he relaxed.

"Hey bud!"
He rubbed his face, trying to appear less drained.

"Are you alright?"
He asked leaning on the rail as well.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm a~ just really tired."

"You should go rest!"

"Can't!"
He shook his head.

"Why are you working so hard?"
Kurama turned to look back at the sleeping raven. Sasuke knew the look in his tired eyes, it was the same look Naruto had when he looked at him.
"Oh~"
Sasuke breathed out as Kurama turned back around.
"But you could hurt yourself working like this."

"He's worth it"
Kurama chuckled. There was a pause as the two stared down at the grassy fields behind the house.

"You love him... don't you?"
Sasuke voice was soft, almost a whisper.

"I do"

"So~ your together?"

"Yeah"
Another pause.

"Thank you for being here for him, I wish I was."

"Hey,"
Kurama rested a hand on his shoulder as he looked up into the red eyes.
"It's not your fault! You know that right."
Sasuke nodded and so he relaxed, resting his head in his hands. The raven looked up at the starry sky, all the small lights reflecting perfectly in his black orbs.

"I always wanted to know how people felt, I thought if I knew then I could help. That if I knew I wouldn't be so useless."

"We always want to know, until we do know, then we wish we didn't."
He mumbled, following Sasuke's gaze to the brightly lit sky.