Forbidden Love -JJ Maybank x y/n Cameron

Chapter 20

Y/n's POV:

As we are walking home, I feel a bit sad. My time alone with JJ is ending but at least we get to spend time with the others... right? 

We get back home and I decide to call Sarah.

"Hey Sarah, we just got to Tannyhill." I say.

"Ok, can you get JJ to drive you to the Chateau?" she asks.

"We don't have a car or JJ's bike." I say.

"Do you think you could walk here?" she asks.

"Nah, we've just been for a huge walk. We'll meet up later, I promise." I say.

"Ok, bye y/n." she says and I hang up. I let out a relieved breath before looking over to JJ. He's smiling at me.

"What?" I ask, smiling back.

"Am I not allowed to just admire my beautiful girlfriend?" he says sarcastically. I feel myself flush over. JJ really knows how to give me butterflies. "What?" he asks in a mocking tone.

"You really know how to give someone butterflies." I say.

"Oh." he says, his smile growing. "I didn't realize." he says.

"Well it's true." I say. I want to say 'Every word that comes out of your perfect mouth is enough to make me have butterflies. Like, you could be saying the meanest shit and I would get instant butterflies. I hate that you're words have so much power over me!' but I decide not to. I don't want to sound so weak.

"Are you all good?" he asks.

"I hate you." I say quietly.

"Wait what?" he shouts. His eyes gloss over. "Why? I've been trying my hardest not to be a dick! I thought you loved me! Please tell me what I did and I promise you that I'll do anything to fix it. Please tell me baby." he says, tears slipping from his perfect eyes. I instantly wrap my arms around his neck. He nestles his head into my chest. "Please tell me what I did." he cries.

"I was joking my love. I meant that I hate that your words have so much power over me. It makes me feel weak and my mother always told me to never, ever, let anyone make you weak, especially not a boy." I say. He looks up at me, a grin spread across his face, his eyes puffy and red.

"I'm sorry cupcake, I didn't realize I was so powerful." he teases.

"That's exactly what I mean!" I yell, backing away from him.

"Y/n I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. You know I'm an idiot." he says.

"Ok, first of all, don't call my perfect ass boyfriend an idiot." I say, frowning at him. "Second, this is what I mean. You could say anything and I mean anything and I would quite literally fold from it. I love you but sometimes you have way too much power over me." I say. I'm ashamed and I hate myself. JJ just nods.

JJ's POV:

I just stare at her and nod. I don't understand, but I'm scared she'll lash out at me again. I know that it wasn't meant to be mean but I was really confused. I feel bad. I don't want her to feel weak. I shouldn't talk for a while, it'll make her upset.

"Are you going to say anything?" she asks nervously.

"I don't know if that's a good idea." I say quietly. She nods. Her eyes are glistening. Shit, she's gonna cry. I walk over to her, grabbing her face in my hands. "Please don't cry my love." I whisper. She nods.

"Ok." she says, a tear falling down her cheek. I wipe it away before brushing her hair off her face and tucking it behind her ear. "I love you." she whispers.