Forbidden Love -JJ Maybank x y/n Cameron

Chapter 57

JJ's POV:

I never would've been able to imagine being a father. I always thought I'd be single my entire life, only ever messing around with random girls. And then y/n walked into my life. I'll admit, I thought we'd hookup once and then never speak of it again. But at the same time I guess I knew that she would be more than that.

From the moment I saw her, I knew she was gorgeous. She's the most beautiful girl in the world. And yeah, you could say "If you're so attracted to y/n, how are you not attracted to Sarah?" but it's simple. They're so different. They may not seem like it but if you know them like I do, you notice the differences.

Y/n's eyes are lighter, her hair's also slightly lighter. They have very similar personalities, laughs and thoughts but again, there are differences. They're both feisty and sarcastic but I'd say y/n's a bit more feisty and sarcastic than Sarah. Sarah's a lot more serious.

Y/n and I have easier conversations. With Sarah and I, we don't know exactly what to talk about but with me and y/n we always know exactly what to talk about or when to not talk. I could never have that with any other girl. I've never felt this way about anyone before. Not even Kie. 

I did have a bit of a crush on Kie for a while. But then she kept shutting Pope down so I assumed it was never gonna happen and so I let her go. And then the best thing that could ever happen, happened. I fell in love with a girl who could never disappoint me, never make me sick of her and never make me hate her. No matter what.

Now, here we are. Only three days away from our first Christmas together and only a few months until we have a baby. It's scary. But there's no one in this world who I'd rather be doing this with.

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Y/n's POV:

It's Christmas Eve. I miss my Mom. I know, we went through this on my birthday but I'm allowed to miss her. It's hard, it really is. I know that I can get through it, but it's my first Christmas without her. I've decided to push those feelings away. JJ already worries about me too much.

I'm wrapping a few final gifts. As much as I am scared, I'm excited. I have all these amazing people who love me more than I could ever imagine. And I'm having a baby with the guy I couldn't love more. I bring all the presents downstairs and place them under the tree. It was so much fun setting it up all together. JJ looks at me as he smiles. He walks over to me and wraps his arms tightly around me.

"How are you this morning?" he asks.

"I'm good." I lie. I had a mental breakdown right as I got out of bed. The feeling of missing my Mom combined with the extra hormones from pregnancy are not a good mix. He frowns.

"Mama. Don't lie, you can tell me everything." he says.

"I just kinda miss my Mom." I say trying my best not to cry but my voice breaks and he pulls me into his chest.

"And that's ok. You're allowed to be upset." he whispers into my hair as he kisses the top of my head. I cry harder. I cry so hard that I scream. "What's wrong?" he whispers, pulling away and inspecting my face curiously.

"I don't deserve you." I sob and he hugs me again. He laughs.

"Mama if one of us doesn't deserve the other then it's me." he says through his laughter.

"I love you." I whisper.

"I love you more." he says. I don't protest.

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It's 10:30 at night. I'm so fucking tired. I'm literally a walking fucking zombie. Sarah insisted that we watch Christmas movies. She could see how tired I was though so she let me pick. Obviously, I chose Home Alone and we all promised to watch the second one tomorrow night. We have popcorn, cocoa, cookies and chocolate. Lots and lots of chocolate.

JJ and I are wearing matching Christmas pyjamas. We all have big, fluffy blankets on and we're all snuggled up on the couch. I'm lying on top of Sarah, JJ and Kie. I let Wheeze and the other boys off cause I'm not that tall. JJ plays with my hair throughout the movie which feels really good. I'm so lucky to have all these amazing people.

JJ's POV:

She's so cute like this. Her head lying in my lap. She's in her Christmas pyjamas that match mine. She has the biggest, fluffiest blanket we could find and she still says she's cold. I'm barely paying attention to the movie. The whole time, I've been watching her and playing with her hair. It's so soft. I can tell she just washed it.

I love the conditioner she uses. It smells amazing. It makes her hair softer than any other conditioner she's ever used. I also love the body wash she uses. It smells so good. At this point, I'm just making up excuses on why I love her. I love everything about her, so there's really no point. I'll admit though, at the start, I didn't know why I loved her so much. That's how you know it's real. You love someone but you don't know why. It was fun to figure it out.

I never want this moment to end. I love it when we have movie nights. It's the best. We all sit there together, eating snacks and laughing. And a lot of the time the girls, crying.

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She fell asleep. It happened right when the movie was almost done. About 3/4 of the way through it I'd say. I wait for everyone else to get up before I pick her up and carry her up to her room. It feels weird if I call it our room. It's always just been hers. I lay her down gently before slotting myself in next to her.

Hey pookies. I'm so sorry this took so long to upload. Anyways, here it is I hope you enjoyed. I'm gonna really try to get a chapter out by Sunday at the latest. But I do have some stuff on Saturday and the rest fo the week I have to study even though I really don't want to lolsies. Anyway as always ily guys sm and I hope you have a great day/night 💞