Forbidden Love -JJ Maybank x y/n Cameron

Chapter 23

John B's POV:

JJ's been my best friend since the third grade. I love him to pieces but this whole situation has gotten a bit out of hand.

I don't wanna be rude, but JJ could be wrong. They could actually be dead. I have little hope that they're alive. I need to keep that to myself, I don't want JJ to get upset. He's been so strong through this whole thing and now it's my turn to be strong for him. If they are dead, he'll need me more than ever.

I've mostly come to terms with the fact that she's gone, that Sarah's gone. Who am I kidding, I'll never get over it. Every day, I find myself missing her more and more. I loved Sarah, so much, and now she's gone. I don't think she's coming back.

I know y/n left JJ a note, but they could've found it and killed them or something.

Kie's POV:

The only other girls. The only other girls who I considered my best friends are gone. Everyone thinks they're coming back, but I don't have high hopes. Would it be amazing if they were still out there? Yes, absolutely. Do I think they are out there? No, not really.

I feel bad for JJ. He has his head wrapped around the idea that y/n's coming back. I know she left him the note with the secret message but still. You never know what could've happened. For all we know, the note could be leading us on some wild goose chase.

I would be over the moon if they were still here. Sarah and I had a rocky relationship up until a few weeks ago and y/n only just got here. Even though she's fairly new, we accepted her, got to know her and grew to love her- JJ more than anyone.

Pope's POV:

I wasn't as close to Sarah and y/n, but the others were. I feel like this is a journey where they do need me but I'm not connected to it as much as they all are. JJ has y/n to look forward to, John B has Sarah and Kie has both of them. 

I'm not close with either of them. They were my friends, but we didn't have a close relationship. JJ and y/n were always by each other's side and the same with John B and Sarah, then Kie has her kook connections to them.

I know that they aren't kook-kooks, they're pogue-kooks. Still though. There was that kook party and they hung out with each other and I was kinda just... There. On the side, cheering them all on.

I don't want to be jealous, but I am. I'm jealous of what JJ and y/n have. I'm jealous of what John B and Sarah have. They're my best friends and I couldn't be more jealous of their lives. I want what they have. I want someone to wish me luck on an assignment. I want someone to tell me that I look good. I want someone to love me the way my friends have their love!

JJ's POV:

I can't believe it! We're figuring it out.

'We're getting there my love. I miss you so much, I can't put it into words. I love you. I love you beyond what I can explain. I love you more than life. I would do anything for you. I'd rather spend every minute of every day with you than do anything at all. I could just be sitting in a room with you and I'd be so happy. Y/n, I love you so much, it hurts. I refuse to get upset. I know I'll see you again, so there's no need. I love you, my baby.'

I wanted to get that off my chest. I've been keeping my emotions bottled up for two weeks. My god, it's been two weeks. I look around the car. Everyone, but John B of course, is asleep. So then Kie and Pope. That's everyone right now. Me, John B, Kie and Pope. 

I'm so used to having all the girls now. I'm used to having my girl. But she's not here and I'm gonna be the one to change that. I'm gonna rescue her.

"How are we gonna get to Guadeloupe?" I ask quietly.

"I haven't thought that far ahead just yet. We just hopped in the Twinkie and left." John B says. I know we probably should've thought of a plan but this can't wait. I know that eventually two weeks will turn into three and it will spiral from there. I can't wait that long. I need my y/n now.

"Ok." I say.

"JJ, I know you'll hate me asking this-"

"Then don't ask if you know I'll hate it!" I snap.

"No JJ! This can't wait!" he says, "Are you ok man? You look like shit. You haven't slept in days, weeks now. I'm worried bout you JJ. You're really letting yourself go." he says. John B's words break me. I look at myself in my phone camera. He's right. 

I haven't slept since the night she went missing. I have massive bags under my eyes. I've gone back to smoking and drinking all day. I don't go to school. I haven't had a drink of water in days. I haven't eaten any real food. I haven't showered or brushed my teeth. It's like I can't even function without her. Y/n is my lifeline. 

I turn off my phone as a tear slips from my eye.

"JJ I-"

"Don't be sorry. You're right. The entire time she's been gone I've either been drunk or high. Most of the time both. I haven't slept or gone to school. I haven't had any water or food for a few days. I haven't showered. I don't want to live without her." I say, finally allowing myself to cry.

"We'll find her. For you. You clearly need her." he says.

"I know." I whisper through my sobs. I rest my head in an attempt to sleep. I'm drained, mentally and physically, from all the sleepless nights. I miss being happy. I miss y/n.

...

We eventually arrive at the dock where all the big boats are. The place where kooks get on cruises and where we're about to be stowaways on a shipping container. As we sneak onto the boat, I remind myself why I'm doing this. 

I'm doing this to be happy. I'm doing this for y/n.

Y/n's POV:

3:52 pm. 14 days,  18 hours and 37 minutes. I'm beginning to worry he's never coming.