Forbidden Love -JJ Maybank x y/n Cameron

Chapter 46

Y/n's POV:

This morning, I woke up to the sound of JJ snoring softly, and his arms wrapped tightly around my waist. I've been longing for this but now it just feels painful. Like, it's great and making me happy and everything, I just feel bad and sad about it. Maybe cause of Topper. I've kissed JJ while me and Topper are dating, yet this feeling is worse.

Topper never knew JJ was coming. It's guilt that I'm feeling. I feel guilty for being here with JJ and my boyfriend doesn't know about it.

"Are you ok?" JJ whispers, his voice croaky. I shuffle away a little.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I lie.

"What's bothering you?" he yawns.

"Topper didn't know you were coming." I admit.

"Ok?" he asks, "Why's that making you so on edge?

"Cause I feel guilty." I say.

"But making out with me didn't?" he smirks.

"The circumstances were different!" I perk up.

"Were they though? You were mad and he wasn't there. What's so different?" he asks.

"Stop JJ." I say, getting up. I sit back down. "What are we doing today?" I ask. He chuckles.

"Breakfast in the pool, then we're gonna go explore the island, beaches and stuff. At the end of the day we're going somewhere nice for dinner." he says. I smile before rushing off to get into a white bikini.

As I'm finding my way through the villa, JJ finds me.

"Lost, princess?" he asks.

"Don't call me princess." I say. He frowns a sarcastic frown.

"This way to the pool." he says, linking arms with me and taking me to the pool. We walk through the back door, giggling. When I see Sarah and John B, I jump away from JJ.

"Maldives day one!" she sings and we all cheer. JJ cannonballs into the pool, absolutely soaking us all. I jump in and shove him angrily but also in a sarcastic angry way.

"Sorry princess, did I get you wet?" he teases. He comes closer and whispers so only I can hear him, "In more than one way?" I smack him and he laughs. I eventually join him in his laughter before he pulls me to him by my waist. Before he can say anything, I speak up.

"I'm hungry." I whisper. He chuckles.

"The food will be here soon, I promise." he whispers, kissing my head. A shiver is sent down my spine, butterflies fluttering around in my stomach.

"You're such a dick." I say sarcastically.

"What'd I do this time?" he asks defensively.

"You've done this before and I told you off for it. When we were dating." I say. The butterflies evaporate and the pain returns. JJ takes a moment to think before smirking at me.

"Have they fluttered away yet?" he whispers, sending the same response through my body. He gently grabs my arm under the water. "Cause there's gonna be pterodactyls later on." he adds before splashing me and swimming away, leaving me there speechless. I miss him.

I miss him so much but he's right there. I guess I miss him more than just physically miss him. I miss everything about him. I miss the way he used to talk to me. I miss the way he used to hold me. I miss the way he used to love me. What am I saying? JJ loves me... right? I mean I think he does by the way he acts, but you can never be too sure. What if he's moved on though? What am I even doing? Of course he loves me. He tells me like, every day.