Love Me (Lesbian Story)

Why Don't You Love Me

Demi's POV
I need a break. I don't know what it is. Whether its our relationship or Bella. I don't know if it's work or just life in general. I feel like me and Maiya are always getting into arguments. And it's always over stupid things.
"Mommy?" Izabella called.
"Yes sweetie?" I sighed.
"Can we get some ice cweam?" I chuckled at her inability to pronounce the letter 'r.' It's cute.
"We'll see. I'll ask momma. Okay?" I told her as I started to text Maiya. I feel like she's rarely home anymore. And when she is, she either sleeps or spends time with Bella. It's as if I'm not even here anymore.

To Maiya Bæ💖: Hey babe. Izabella wanted to know if we could get ice cream tonight. Is that okay with you?

I miss her. I really do, but I'm tired of arguing with her. I want the Maiya I fell in love with. The one I wasn't scared of.

From Maiya Bæ💖: Why are you asking me? You're her mother too. But yeah sure whatever.

Stuff like this is what I mean. It's pointless and I don't understand why she gets so snappy. I wonder if she's been taking her medicine.

At around 5:30, Maiya finally came home.
"Hey babe. How was your day?" I asked trying to be nice.
"Hey sweetie. Could've been better. How was yours?" she asked as she kissed me.
"Normal I guess." I said as I shrugged. She pulled away.
"What do you mean?" she said as she rubbed my forearm.
"Well I asked you a simple question and you got upset with me. And that kinda bothered me a bit. And I feel like something's bothering you that you're not telling me." I sighed.
"Here we go again. Why can't you just trust me? If I say I'm fine, then I'm fine. Why don't you get that?" she ran her fingers through her hair. Now she's stressed.
"Well you haven't always given me a reason to trust you Maiya. I always feel like I have to question you."
"Well you don't." She simply said as she started to walk away.
"Have you been taking your medicine?" and that question was all it took to set her off.
"Demi why does it matter? This is my fucking life. Maybe I don't want to have to take medicine everyday of my life like I fucking batshit crazy." I'm not fucking crazy." She yelled in my face. She had come closer so I had backed up into the wall to get as far away from her as possible.
"I never said you were crazy. But you need help. We can't keep living together if it's always going to be like this." She scares me when she's upset. I've learned to stay away from her.
"Then I'll just leave since that seems to be what you want anyway." She said as she turned away to go upstairs.
"Maiya...no. Please don't. I don't really want you to go." I cried as I slid down on the wall crouched in a ball. She sighed and came back to squat in front of me.
"Dems, we can't keep doing this. We have to fix this." She said as she tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear. I flinched and whimpered at her touch.
"Demi, do I scare you?" She asked as she pulled back.
"I-I...um...I.." I stuttered.
"I do, don't I? She whispered.
I nodded and hung my head low so she couldn't see my tears. She backed up.
"Demi I don't want to be here with you if I scare you. I don't want to scare you or hurt you. I can't live with you being afraid of me." She whispered. I didn't say anything. We just sat there in silence. After a few minutes, I spoke up.
"I think we need to take a break." I whispered. I immediately saw the tears roll down her cheeks.
"Whatever makes you feel better." She snapped as she turned to go upstairs.
"Maiya..." I started. And this time she didn't turn back.

I just sat against the wall crying. What have I done? We both know that we can't be without each other. I technically broke up with her. Which means that if she finds someone else, then she could easily just forget about me. But what about Izabella? Oh no. Izabella. Ice cream. I ran up the stairs to the bedroom. Maiya is just laying in the bed sobbing.
"I'm an idiot. I'm so oblivious to every else's feelings. Insane. Stupid. Pitiful. Useless. Worthless. What am I without Demi? Nothing but a worthless piece of shit." She cried. She got up so I made it look like I just walked in. When I saw her face I felt a huge pang of guilt. It was tear stained and red.
"Umm can you take Izabella to get ice cream with me?" I asked shyly. She just nodded and walked into the bathroom. I just hope she doesn't do anything she'll regret later.